choices in life :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANQI :D

2008-05-18T22:29:00.005+08:00

HAHAHA! i'm doing this for ADELINE LI! :D
everything's the same as my livejournal :)

YUPP! Happy 19th Birthday to me! :D
pictures will be posted soon :) but not today. HAHAHAHA.

special thanks to my TOUs, miss pam, coach for the surprise plan && went down to the BBQ.
special thanks to MADNESS, LYS-JYS-ians :D, NZAs~, deCRUZbrandon, RON, jingkai's FATALITY for coming down to the BBQ.
speical thanks to my FAMILY for acting in the plan too :)
&& of cos' special thanks to WONG JING KAI, my bf, for planning, gathering ppl for the surprise bbq for my bdae :)
thanks for all the presents :) regardless what was that :)
appreciate all of it.

p/s: CE NETBALLERS :D
my mum asked if i wanna be a PINK PANTHER soon :)

-- MSG TO --

TOUfamily + miss PAM + ray :)
thanks for the pink jersey, pink waterbottle, pink highligher, pink pen, photoframe with pink alphas && the card :) thanks for those cookies session :D MORE TO COME.thanks for the companion for NSL :D

MADNESS
thanks for the pink/purple tennis bag :) :) :) :) i'll use it de :D
sorry furby, the cake was chocolate flavour =/

BRANDONdeCRUZ, RON (&& JOHN)
thanks for the pink slipper:)
&& thanks for not tearing away the price tag :D
sorry DECRUZbrandon for the argument :) no hard feelings :)

LYS - JYS - ians
thanks for the "make her look like a fool" session huh! hahaha! thanks for the 19 boxes of POKYs!!
thanks for the photo album, the DIY notice board with all the photos && messages :)
thanks sher-hua & tina for staying up to do the thing.
thanks ah tong & sisters for the photo frame with your DIY inside :D

VICTOR zhu wei!!
thanks for turning up after MIA-ing for so long :D was really nice to see you :D:D:D:D:D

WINSON, DAVID:)
i waits for your present soon :D

KINGWA monster
thanks for that guy-wallet huh?! LOL! :)
exchange it for something else again :D

JINGKAI's FATALITY/ li-hui & fujie
thanks for the kinder bueno.

JINGKAI
thanks for the surprise BBQ :D
thanks for the formal shirt from alano. thanks for the perfume <3>
iloveyou

FAMILY
brother, thanks for the wallet :)
mummy, thanks for the watch :)
dad, thanks for the ang bao :)
i love you guys :)

OTHERS who wished me one way or another..
THANK YOU :) you guys are well-appreciated :)

~~but i'm still waiting for somebody's else's =/~~

2008-05-18T21:50:00.002+08:00

haven't been updating in blogger for some time. i shall update && do some tidy up here when i've more free time :)

more updates would be done at http://anqi-loved.livejournal.com :)
welcome && if you want, you can always comment at my comments area :)
SEE YOU !!! :)

HAPPY 2008!!

2008-01-01T10:54:00.000+08:00

actually there's updates on me :D but, everybody is like blogging about new year and new resolutions =.="x SO, i felt guilty for not spending much time thinking about the new year which is already here.

=]
before anything, HAPPY 2008 EVERYONE! :]

what's for the new year?!
HMMMM *ponders-

-NEW CAR?!=x HAHA!
no luh~ unrealistic =) i shall get my license when i'm more free :)

- SAVE UP :)
i nidd to save up. LAST YEAR, i've like spent more than what i'd saved. =.="x

- MORE CLOTHINGS :D
yeayea, i wanna go shopping. SO, i nidd MORE SAVINGS :D

- MORE BOYFRIENDS :X
hahahahha! no luh~ =) wanna be with JingKai. and only him as my boyfriend=D

- MORE FRIENDS :)
yeapp. i love making new friends. but at the same time. i nidd to learn how to make every friendship last :):):)

- TP!
yeah! temasek will be my GOAL :D for life. HAHA.

- GPA4?!
hopefully, nothing would makes it drop =)

- be more gentle :X
hahahahahha! why!?! i've been like biting, scolding vulgarities, being rough too much last year ;) SHALL TRY with NO VULGARS!

- let the bygones be bygones :D
wooooo. good ehh?! =X hahas! and yes, i mean it ;] no point quarrelling or being angry.

- EARN MORE MONEY! $$$$$
earning more = saving more :D hahaha. hopefully not spending more =X

- LEARN how to cook?! =X
haha.! i think i noe some dishes. but i think i nidd to learn more :D

- BETTER time management ;)

- MORE family day! :)

- i HAPPY u HAPPY everyone HAPPY :)

- friendship to LAST *
i don't wish to lose any friends.

- learn how to differentiate between OPINIONS and FACTS ;)

- get brother to the studying track :)
he nidds some discipline instead of using the computer to play games the whole day =.=

- get brother a PSP =)
i know contradicting. to my previous PLAN. but. at least, maybe, it can satisfy him and prevent him playing com the whole day.

- MEMORY GAIN
oh please. i seriously think i nidds this. HAHA. maybe more memory games?!

- SLIM DOWN!
yeahs! cut* cut* cut* FATS down* down* down*

- lesser JUNK food.
lesser potato chips, lesser chocolates, lesser sweets, lesser ice cream, lesser deep fried food. and OH MAN. this is SO HARD to obtain!

- GET WHITER! :D
i nidd to like "purify" myself before i gets into POLY :D

- get a camera :)
i mean not camera phone BUT real camera :)

- make boyfriend feel more LOVED :D

ya. currently LIKE THAT NAHH :D
anything i'll type as i blog down the year :)

HAPPY 2008!!!

detailed blog.

2007-12-25T15:35:00.000+08:00

okay, finally i've got time and energy to really sit down infront of this lappy to blog seriously abt my days [[: alright. all the previous entries i admit are all brief ones. but, i'll try to refresh my memory and blog it in a more detailed manner alright :)

back to the... chalet?! oh no. the Khoo Teck Puat Ceremony! okay. it's the 18th dec. that day, i met up with winson and we went for b'fast or early lunch you call it at KFC :) i only had my whipped potato :D MUAHA! favourite!! =P *slurrps!! seriously, winson decided to pei me go cos' i don't know how to go =X HAHA. so, went to Buona Vista and it started to rain VERY heavily! =( so, winson suggested to cab there :):) and then, i think he headed home. thanks butch! :) met up with shida inside the ITE HQ, Heritage Gallery. and the event was like so formal and i seriously hate formal events cos' the staffs would be more nervous than anyone else and when you see them nervous, you tend to be a lil' bit nervous too =/ shida and i were the flower girls :X haha! Khoo Teck Puat Company is good! they are giving students more chances to go for overseas trip :]] SO GOOD RIGHT. =D and yes, i must admit, it's a very different experience to go for oversea trip :D and every trip will be a eye opener for you. you'll start to go sua gu and WOAH WOAH WOAH~ de. and you'll have better understanding of how things work in other countries :) and you'll love every trip. so. i totally agrees with them on providing more funds for global learning activities :D:D:D:D:D

went to jurong east station with shida. and had a very good chat with her ehh. i think what we'd said was more than what we'd in laos :) went over to sengkang to send my love a honey milk tea :D with that formal wear, it's weird but nvm luh! =)=) went home. and then, got bathed and everything and went to the chalet.

chalet was with SHERHUA, SOHHWEE, TINA, PEARLLENE, CHERIE, YIXING, IVY, JIAYI, MICHELLE and CLOUDY :D i think i'm the only one who havent met up with them for quite some time. LOL. and i was so glad that i could make it there :):) cos' all the phototakings craze all came back =D and i miss all those feelings :) feelings went back to the old times. old times in secondary school, playing netball, gatherings and all. and GUESS WHAT?! i didnt sleep for the whole night :):) and we played guessing game, pocky game and started to drink, kiss and etc with each other. LOL. okayy. till one period of time we sent michelle out cos' she'd to work. then, pearllene, jiayi and i went out to pei her lo. after choosing the cab, finally michelle board up the taxi and they went crazy on empty streets. LOL. okay. went back and everyone alrdy in the hibernate mode alrdy. HAHA. so, after sohhwee and tina got ready for work, cloudy and i went home :) this was when i realised that my ez-link card wasnt inside my pocket and i walked back to the chalet and when i reached the KFC, i realised, my ez-link card was inside my bag =.= like WTH! i was really in hibernating mode luh~! went home since cloudy dont wish to have any breakfast. LOL!

then, KO-ed for awhile before going out with mummy. but when i wake up, the first thing i did was helping brother with his application into ITE. and hopefully, he's gonna be a good boy and study really hard cos' ITE aint that simple afterall. brother wasnt having any mood to shop so, mum and i went out on our own. i went to pray to tai sui first then, went to tampines. and i saw wacharapong! LOL. like so random ehh? haha! we went to have some snacks first then we went to queue for M1 cos' as i said, i wanna get rid of my phone. not because K810i is not good. but, i don't like. Nokia supporter? maybe? i don't know. but seriously, i do like K810i's design :D and then, got this phone Nokia 6121. had been using this phone for quite a few days and maybe i don't want to change to N95 le nehh? LOL =X even if i don't have that phone it's fine you know, cos' hubbyBOY's phone is MINE :D haha! and then, mummy and i realised that everywhere also queuing. so we were so lazy to shop and we headed home soon after dinner at whitesands. was feeling abit sick that day. slept kinda late which i rather regret ehh. cos' my eye bags were out =X but nvm. hubbyBOY got something from his sis for me alrdy and i like put it at his hse still zZz.

went out with hubbyBOY since i decided not to work today :) we went for breakfast at rivervale plaza :D:D and then we rented 881 and another movie and watched it at his house. LOL. and that's when his mother came back with BAK GUA and PINEAPPLE TARTS:) hubbyBOY so bad can. he don't wanna eat. =.= and then, after that, we headed to vivo city. to return his uniform to marche. and then, we took pictures. okay, i dont look that good that day i think it's because i was tired luh =( and actually we wanted to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks there but because we didnt book the place so, there wasnt any sits there. even if there's it's all the front rows. and OH. we went to book a place in Marina Square :) so, we headed to marina. took our tix and we went to arcade. there wasnt any basketball hoobs there. so. we walked one round and went back to collect our popcorns :D and yeahs, we finished the WHOLE box of popcorns okay! :D:D:D:D:D like yah! we did! :):) next, we went to have dinner at kenny rogers' and at first i said who cares abt kenny's favourite. cos' it was one of their main course. and BLAHH. i ordered that in the end. LOLs. and seriously, next time i wont even bother about what kenny likes liao =.= HAHA. disturbed hubbyBOY the whole evening :P bleahhh~ and then, we wanted to take 518 home but it was full and we wanted to find other bus stops and we got near DXO. LOL! but we didnt went in luh. and finally, decided to head back home through MRT. LOL. =P did i sleep inside the mrt? i forgot =X HAHA. and then, it was so late that boyfriend had to cab home :X reached home, bathed and i think i K.O-ed VERY SOON =P

rmbr the purpose of taking this picture? :X HAHA!

and on friday, i had to work. and i wasnt feeling very well. i can't be sick. once sick, it's like all type of sickness will reach me de. AND. it would take a very long time for me to recover. like WTH right? :D can't blame. that's me. and yes, the weather was so bad that i almost made faint for the 2nd time in Lakes =.= yaya! i'm serious! hubbyBOY had to work so he didnt send me to work nor from work :) which was rather fine with me cos' he gave me calls and sms-es after his work :D slept rather late too. actually there was supposed to be a LYSnetballers gathering but it was cancelled due to some reasons :( OH WELL. nvm. there's always next time :D

worked again on saturday and hubbyBOY came in surprise :) with a packet of sweets for throat :D *loved* haha! and then, worked. got permission from William and Bernard and i got off from work at 8pm!! :D went to bathed and etc. and went to meet cloudy. next, to whitesands to meet up with KIM GUAN, MICHELLE, JIAYI, ROBIN, HAZEL. then at simei, IVY waited for SOHHWEE and TINA to finish their dinner and then to PLAY :) went to eat at maxwell and then, to PLAY again :) and =) yesh, cloudy's like 18th ALRDY! :D yesyes. hope she enjoyed huh. YEAPP. over at PLAY with them and yixing with robin's friends :) johnathan, allester and i dont know who =X HAHA. okayy. 3 jugs of Ribena Vodka and 1 jug of Cherry Vodka with straws :) headed to the dance floor and etc happenings :D okay. after hazel initiated to head home, we went back to maxwell since johnathan wanted to eat :) then we cabb to pasir ris which was just opposite cloudy's and mine house. cos' there's 24-hr coffeeshop. HAHA. kim guan K.O-ed inside the cab and jiayi and i started giggling at the back :) oh well. after that, head home :)

then slept awhile before waking up again to meet up with winson for breakfast at YA KUN with iced milo!! =) and kaya and butter TOASTs :D went to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks again and i slept at the ending part. am sorry butch. i didnt meant that to happened. LOL. =) you know how tired i am luh. LOL. went to buy presents :D YEAPP. and then, oh ya. STARBUCKS! :P with machiatto and cheescake :PPP then then then, to town for more shopping and i didnt shop anything for myself :( like so sad. BUT nvm, had a good dinner with pineapple rice, crispy chicken and CALAMARI RINGS :D =P *SLURPS. and we were so full after that. HAH. then, home :) good day. thanks winson:) tired. but slept VERY LATE. thanks to the wrapping of pressies. LOL.

woke up and headed to hubbyBOY's hse. LOL. gave him his pressie and his family's present. and MUAHAHAHAHA! his sis said thanks to me with a smile alright! :D LOL. not trying to say that his sis is very rude but too quiet that made her scary. LOL. i mean. yes. very scary. got hubbyBOY to try the newbie jacket i brought for him. and HAH. it's abit long for him. but i couldnt get S cos S like super short lehh. cos' the size differences is VERY big. LOL. nevertheless, i still hope you like the present :) watched 斗牛要不要 and 恶作剧之吻2 =) then then then :D :D :D :D like what i said, i'm like a operator when he went to bathe. HAHA. helped him with his packing while he was tidying himself. LOL. went to have his quick lunch while i eat the seaweed that his 2nd sis brought back from korea. =) then, to famous amos to collect the cookies for ME and the NZo6o4A's peeps :D and yesh, THANKS boyfriend :D and oh yah, i found out all his secret =X HAHA! including JESSICA's and his plot of the tuna can. LOL. yeayea.

he sent me to dhouby ghaut. and then he went to vivo city to meet up with his eldest sis while i went to meet up with the NZo6o4A's usuals Bs:) butch-winson, bitchNO.1-yenn&boyfriend, bitchNO.2-pearllyn and bitchNO.4-samaniah. LOL. exchanging of presents at starbucks since that BITCH no.4 wanna =) LOL. so much of coincidences on this christmas eve :) yenn&boyfriend bought the same type of thing for samaniah as what me and winson had bought. and then, what winson bought for pearllyn is what pearllyn was wearing! HAHA! went to fareast for yenn wanna tattoo. and HAHA. i saw the process okay! -.-"x and for that, it's 300bucks!! =.="x OKAY. walked to sakura and then, it was full. so we headed to ParkWay:) had dinner at Fish & Co. and had Danish Fish & Chips. *YUMMY- took pictures and all :) oh yah. it was yenn's boyfriend, Andy's treat. thanks dude. AND. haha! that picture you drew on the box looks so evil =X oh yea. anyway. great day. great x'mas eve. since samaniah had to head home. so we didnt do countdown. back home thru 15 but winson said he was vomiting. you know.. he's.. HAHA. anyway. got down the bus and he sent me home thru cabb. woots. so i got home kinda fast :) and used the computer for awhile before i K.O.ed. and yes, in the end, hubbyBOY msg-ed me :D

mine's the CLEANEST :D

and the BITCHES :)

went to meet up with my netballers today in the evening :) and had BBQ Chicken =)

Merry Christmas girls (:

and huiping, HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

=) badminton, delivering of present and chalet tmr ;)

and. yah.

i'm tired alrdy~~~! NIGHTS.

Xmas!

2007-12-25T00:50:00.000+08:00

christmas is HERE !!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

yay~~~~ okay! i don't sound that excited. cos' hubbyBOY aint in Singapore. he sent me one sms when he just reached indonesia BUT i didnt the reception there is either VERY BAD or TOO JIALATs. cos' he didnt sms me liaos =(

BUT nvm. i did met up with my dearest love this morning regardless how tired i was. we watched THEY KISSED AGAIN 2 and DOU NIU YAO BU YAO :D i was so tired that i really put myself comfortably on his bed with his bolster :X and haha! his 2nd sis said thanks to me ehh! :X likeyay! finally she don't look that fierce. FOR ONCE =X when hubbyBOY went to bathe CALLS kept coming in and i'm like a operator, telling them that he's bathing. please call back later. HAHA =X and, this was when his 2nd sis called =) YUPP. chased boyfriend to bathe faster =X HAHA! after his quick lunch, he sent me to plaza sing :) and i just layed myself on his shoulder and i went zZz. =D

went to starbucks to meet up with winson, pearllyn, yenn, andy and samaniah :) SO MUCH of coincidences on this x'mas and =) we spent abt a few hours watching yenn TATOO-ing =X went to had dinner at Fish & Co. LOL. pictures will be uploaded next time =) but i enjoyed today. Thanks people :D

; hubbyBOY, you must be either sleeping tightly now or whatsoever. you can't celebrate your christmas like in singapore. neither can i celebrate christmas with you. but nvm. i still wish you a MERRY CHRISTMAS :D may you be as merry as ever :D and boy, iloveyou so truly and so much. never thought of anything else but to be with you forever :) hope you'll like the christmas pressie i gave you. and again, i'm so in love with you! :D nw, i cant imagine you going to cambodia. but nahh, it's okay! cos' i know, gaining experiences are VERY important ^^ jiayou lerhh oh! and p/s: i don't think the hugs you gave me today is enough to cover up for 2 days!! please do meet up on the 28th! even if i'm tired, i'm so gonna tuck myself deep into your bed with your blanket no matter what your mum says abt your room =X AHHA! *shhhhh* iloveyou.

updates!!

2007-12-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

okay, from the previous entries you people can clearly see that i really did enjoyed the chalet with the lollipopz and jys netballers :D but, must be PEARLLENE luh! pass the virus to us~ i was SICK for the past few days nahh! FLU, COUGH, SOARE THROAT, GIDDY... =.="x and for the retarded picture, MY BOYFRIEND DIDNT SAY ANYTHING ABT STILL WANTING ME IF I BECOME LIKE THAT! :( haha! but oh well, i didnt get drunk so i didnt do that when i was unclear =)

went out with MUMMY ;) prayed to tai sui. and then to Tampines. bought Nokia 6121 :) cos' i wanna get rid of K810i cos' i dont really like Sony Ericsson phone :P yea~! we were both very tired on that day =X so headed home early =)

so, on the 20th, i was out with hubbyBOY :D went over to rivervale plaza and we had Mcdonalds' BIG breakfast and then we rented TWO shows to watch together at his house. and with my thoughtful idea, we watched ONE of the show with his eldest sister=P oh! anyway, jingkai's 2nd sis went to KOREA! =/ *envy! finished TWO shows and hubbyBOY's mum came back with BAK GUA and pineapple tarts :) and i had some though i was having soare throat at that moment =X anyway, got changed and went to VIVO to marche. not to eat. but for hubbyBOY to return the uniform. then, we headed to MARINA SQUARE. watched Alvin and the chipmunks =D MUAHA! it was SO NICE =P=P so super duper CUTE :D then then then we slacked and all and went for dinner at KENNY ROGERS x)x) no more kenny's favourite anymore! LOL! =X headed home after that with hubbyBOY sending me home and SADLY, he had to cab home [: GOOD DAY with hubbyBOY ;) everytime go out with him sure got a main thing to laugh at :D hubbyBOY, iloveyou nahh! :)

worked on friday :) 21st Dec. Charmian's, Cuiling's birthday :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLS :D work was SO GOOD :) except that i almost fainted =.= OKAY. nth much (:

worked again on saturday and headed home at 8pm :D bathed and all. out to meet KIM GUAN, HAZEL, ROBIN, MICHELLE, JIAYI and of cos' CLOUDY :) then to SIMEI to meet SOHHWEE, TINA and IVY :D YIXING board up the train at bugis then we headed to PLAY :) haha! okayy. whatever happened is OVER :) good evening :) and YES, not forgetting to sing a birthday song to cloudy at 12am, 23rd DEC :) hope you enjoyed :D after PLAY, went to the coffee shop opp. to eat :) me and my BANDUNG! :D

went out with WINSON for breakfast at YA KUN in tampines :D and then, Alvin and the Chipmunks again! =x AND i slept at the end part =X sorry! ;P and then bought mummy's and brother's pressie :) headed to ORCHARD. bought pearllyn's and samaniah's pressie :) and then yenn's and her bf's! cant find hubbyBOY's present so headed to bugis. ATE BUTTER SQUID, CRISPY CHICKEN and PINEAPPLE RICE and then headed back to bugis to buy pressie:D HAHA! took quite sometime before deciding what to buy for hubbyBOY. bought his present there and also something for his family =) then to MARINA SQUARE to buy winson's present. finished and :D YAY!! HOME! (: i was SO TIRED luh=(

and till today, i'm still sick! =.=

TMR morning or early afternoon going to find hubbyBOY den to plaza sing to meet up with the rest of NZo6o4A :D while hubbyBOY goes to batam

TUESDAY, ping' BIRTHDAY. morning meet BOON. evening. out with the TOUs for dinner.

WED-FRI chalet! :) with the secslaos :)

fri evening meeting hubbyBOY :D

SAT working :)

SUNDAY out with hubbyBOY :):)

BUSY :D

lazy. PICTURES

2007-12-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

WELL :) i'm abit lazy to blog so so so . SEE THE PICTURES :D

Khoo Teck Puat Foundation Ceremony :)

CHALET :D

ENJOYED :D

and hubbyBOY; would you still love me if i'm like this?! =D

update

2007-12-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

It's either you know me or know me not..

as planned. went out for brother's birthday celebration on 13th the thursday at sakura in downtown east :):) why downtown east? cos' my brother's in chalet with his friend and he got himself drunk like for the chalet =.="x anyway i just love my brother :D

oh yea. YENN, SAMANIAH, WINSON came over to my house at late night and we stood up till 3+am and finally sort of finished so they decided to head home :):) ALRIGHT. i admit. i slept at 2+am =X HAHA! and guess what?! THEY RANSACK MY REFRIGERATOR!! haha! anyway, thanks people :D:D hee.

there's no lesson on friday, the 14th. BUT, we have to go back to the school to do what? PROJECT! so handed up our proposal and drawing and i'm so in love with my that drawing :D:D:D HAH! okay! i bet SAMANIAH and WINSON got sick and tired of that alrdy :X after that headed to eat =) since we were all HUNGRY :X alright. headed back home and got myself prepared and all :):) and out to RP to find JINGKAI ; my boyfriend =) reached there and hubbyBOY brought me up to his class through a short cut :D and sat outside the class and knew a new friend, MARY :X haha. luc's gf. oh. luc is hubbyBOY's classmate =) had a chat with her for 30mins nor (: after class dismissal, went to his class. okay, i didnt went into but i stood outside at the door. HAHA. so, after that hoo-haa, we went to NORTHPOINT :) i can't rmbr when was the last time i went there. and then, we went to this place which we don't know the name, hubbyBOY calls it MSQUARE :X haha! we knows it why =) and that's another lil secret of ours :D anyway watched ENCHANTED again with hubbyBOY :) and then, the tix we bought was like 9pm so we were early nahh. so, we went to walk ard, and then to ARCADE :D muaha! a place which i go often when i'm in bad mood with winson and samaniah :) and we played the bball again and HAHA! for 3 matches, i won TWO okay! and yes, 2nd match i super on form. 52 to 36 ar. HAHA somehting like that =X HAHA! for the 3rd one, HAHAs. picture will show euu. it's like so DRAMA luh! last second! 3 point shoot! AWWWW!!! hahahaha!

and i really enjoyed the date(: HAHA. though though though... =X HAHA! nvm =) and then, he sent me home =D and! know what's the highlight?! i went up my hse and i realised that my paper is with him. den i called him. he said he wanna come up then okay lo =) den when he went down, he realised that his keys were with me so he came up again. LOLS! like so funny luh! =X haha!

SATURDAY, 15th DEC. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAYI! :D =)
-great day spent in school with the CMF children and kids, i hope you did enjoy your day no matter which part of world you're at now. i hope you hear my deepest and warmest wishes to each and every of you, MERRY CHRISTMAS =)

i did this :D

for 16th dec, sunday, i've got work. and haha! boyfriend's so good to fetch me to and from work :D HAHA! and. we almost fought on streets okayy! HAHA. =X but we were laughing when we almost fought la =X hahahahah! anyway, hubbyBOY have been pestering for planning abt our next year's PRE-whatever de honeymoon =X HAHA! but, boyfriend, let's plan later cos' euu know i've got lots to consider too =)

17th dec, TODAY :D hubbyBOY came to fetch me to school and waited for me to finished taking the details and then, we walked to simei and ate a very rushed breakfast but fufilling =D muaha!! :X work! work! work! yes! finally i can work with jiayi :):):) NTH TO DO =X haha. but ended work like this lo :) bathed and all.

tmr's going for Khoo Foundation Ceremony in ITE HQ =) after that? CHALET at coasta! with JYS-ERS, LOLLIPOPZ :D <3s>
going out with mum on wednesday and thursday having another date with my love :) working on friday and saturday and probably going clubbing with girls and robin at night =) sunday, out with winson to buy pressie for christmas =)=)=)

alright. SLEEPY =X GOOD NIGHT WORLD!

imiss SEC SCH life

2007-12-12T19:42:00.000+08:00

samaniah trying to attract the other party :):)

and she said that that was her new name :X

yes, met hubbyBOY yesterday for our one month anniversary and common things :D:D HAHA! we know what X= anyway, he's BAD :P haha. but GOOD too ;))) shan't elaborate much but GOOD EVENING spent :D :D and lately, i've been going to tampines and ZRRHHH!!! my shopping list just increase unknowingly. =( pictures should say most of the things :)

it's pink ^^v YAY! :D

see his DE YI face after able to give me a successful surprise =.= HAHA!

and.
he just can't stop laughing =.=

he sent me back home again :D

ilovehim

below is very random. it's about my thoughts about life. you can don't read cos' it's very long :)

i don't know why, but when i started to be free, i'll be infront of the computer, viewing all my friends' friendster and blog (though not only theirs) but when i started viewing, i started to realised that things are changing.. i'm like too into my current friends and seems to have neglected my secondary school mates and also the jys-ers. this is when i started to ponder where's all my free time? where's my initiative? i know i really wants to meet them up. i knows that i really miss the life with them but... i really ... and i will start to wonder. how're they? what they're doing now and etc etc.. maybe, this aint the worst case cos' at least, i can at least see it from their pics and blogs.

the worst, when some of your friends have no friendster, no blog and there seems no way you can know what they're doing and etc. you tried to sms them but it seems useless.. that's when you find things are really bad.. but, this person seems so hard to contact and sometimes, you really wish you could at least see this person on street accidentally or from far. nono, i don't sound sick. but, just that i treasure friends more than anything else. and maybe, that's the only way to remain how's things are going on. friendship can be kept in different ways.. and friend* if you thinks that keeping it this way would be the best, i respect your decision :)

don't know who i'm talking about?? nvm luh. there's only a few who knows abt this.

i'm missing all my past. life in loyang especially.. so free.. so slack though.. too slack. staying in school for no special reasons. celebrating friends' birthday like the most important thing in the world. run abouts in school like small children with no image at all. knowing most of the people in school. knowing all the teachers. the drawing of tables, the way how we hide books in class, the way how we were so persistant to change the english teacher, the way when we got detension for D&T folio undone, the way how we talk in class, the way how we do pe as a whole class, the way where we get caught for socks, untucked shirts, unclipped hair and long fingernails. the way how we shared ghost stories in class, seeing the way how school changed, how we slacked in toilets, how all of us sat outside the class because we don't want to have chinese lessons, the way how we made one teacher smiled, how we made one teacher cried, the way how we played water, the life in the temporary block, the life in Annex block, the life in old block, the life in science block, bio lab on the 4th story and physics on the 2nd. how classmates fought in class, how we cried over small things, how we chase over cute guys, how we find trouble over one small little thing, how we support each other for whatever reason, how we sat at the canteen to talk, bought the hot dogs to class, the way we copied hmwk before lessons, the way how we go crazy over basketball guys and the cca itself. the way mdm lim brought us to dunman, the way we played netball, the way we stared at each other, the way we cheer each other on, the unsignificant little things it may seems to be. but, i really miss it. the crazy times, the fun times, and that may be the reason why i like things to go crazy, to cover away unwanted thoughts. cos, it seems like... i don't know how to express this feeling.

now, i've found myself another good friend. and i really share almost everything to this particular person. and though after i announce who's the person everybody will go like..... i don't know? full of expression? maybe, after reading this, people will come asking me but, it's better not to :) cos' i think it's gonna be between me and that person. hmm. haha. i don't know how this person is gonna treat me like but i know, even if things turn out to be the same as the first best friendship, i'll still hold on to this friendship cos' these are stuffs and people whom i really treasure.

and of cos, not forgetting my BOYFRIEND :) he's good. and he's like the shinest GEM ;) the one and only one :) and the one that i really really dont want to lose cos' i just can't wait but to treasure him :D ilovehim and that's gonna last :D:D:D:D

i don't know how're you but i hope you're fine my friend*

BIG TEMPTATION =X

2007-12-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

i've got such a BIG temptation to blog today =X HAHA!! woooopsssie =P and BAD hubbyBOY allowed me not to study =X HAHA!

i've test like tomorrow and yet i'm here. HAH. like. so easily distracted yea? kinda. =))

control's test today was GOOD. zai!! :D HAHA! then, meet-up with mei-lin wasnt that bad but had to stay till kinda late in school. good butch, winson waited for me :D MUAHA. thankiew =) so. headed home after ICE-CREAM and otahh bread :D

oh yah!

let me talk about what happened today alright. i got SO UNSOUND today and i screamed, yelled and whined like nobody's business today =X and this crazy partner went INSANE too. oh no. i mean, her neuroticism went high again =X=X HAHA!

this is the prove. she said the green bean soup was BREAD.

so, YAY. she had her HOT bread =X HAHA!!

HAHAHAH!

anyway, what about yesterday? oh well! i went to work as usual and HAHA. went to challenger with pauline and hubbyBOY after work :D LOLs. and and and. YES! hubbyBOY =D we took pictures and as usual with me initiating that idea =P

kees.

after taking this photo, i regret using that pose! cos' hubby say i was too engrossed with him! HAHA! he was like so DE YI when he said that luh!~~~ =.=

i just love him luh~! :D

he sent me back home :) bus was eerie yesterday. everywhere seems quiet. AHA! but, hubbyBOY embraced me tightly within him :D MUAHA. i just felt HAHA. =D so loved =P

yupp yupp! XD

anyway, it's 111207 le :D happy ONE month hubbyBOY:D

though it's our one month anniversary BUT, i still want my revenge :D HAHA!

MYlove,

although you've been acting cute and innocent but. NO WAY!! hubby! there's no way you can win me =P HAHA! although we havent had that time for dating for just both of us, but no worries, we're good like this. HEE. boy, i don't know how you felt when you're with me for this whole month. i'm sorry for the past and i really don't wanna look back =)) i've learnt to be different and all these are because of you. i aint trying to say i'm good or whatever but i just want to tell you, hubbyBOY, because i love you, i'm willing to do so. sometimes, i may do something wrongly without realising but, if you realised that, please do tell me =) anyway, regarding the sentosa trip, rmbr to update me about what are you guys gonna do there alright? =D i love you hubbyBOY; it's not because what i want to prove about this love anymore but how i can't help but fall deep within you my boy :) I love you.

LOVED :D

ilove :D

2007-12-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

:):):) hubbyBOY came to find me on wednesday since he skipped school as he claimed that he needs a rest =X HAHA! :D:D:D he wore a V-Neck Tee =X HAHA! :D he was so nice to accompany all the way to pasir ris when i decided to find my mum and then, he went for work :D had EIB test as well and HAHA. wish me luck! :D

that's the V-neck shirt that i mentioned :X

thursday was a torture with more than 4 hours of break!!! but, somewhat, at least samaniah, winson and i manged to complete the proposal which was later edited by mdm chua again~ thanks maniah and winson for giving me some time to settle my gifts stuffs :D THANKS for the understanding my 2 B's :D after school, headed to the coffee shop opposite to buy brother's and my dinner. WHY?! cos' mummy have to work :( aww. anyway, slept awhile :D and decided to study when hubbyBOY came to find me :D HAHA. he did made my day with his hair :X HAHAHA! after awhile of phototakings, he decided to let me continue with my studies :D:D HEE. anyway, SAMANIAH! thankiew for your understanding :D i know you love me <3s>

:D:D:D

and here's hubbyBOY with his new hairstyle XD HAHA!

AND for friday, which is today, there's actually TWO test instead of ONE! microprocessor and Bm2!! haha! hope everything's gonna be fine =/
after the common test in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, winson and i went to raffles link for DONUTS :D i bought TWO sets of these. one for hubbyBOY & family :D and another for MINE :D

and then, we both decided to go for early DINNER :D at LERK THAI!
it may look little to you but we were VERY FULL!!!

although for me it's just for a moment :X still, thanks for the treat :):)

after that, MRT-ed to compass to find hubbyBOY and then, to his house =] LOLs. the first thing hubbyBOY said to me was about me having LOTS of variety of jackets to choose from esp during this cold weather. LOLS! anyway, went up his house and jingkai helped me to pass the donuts to them and..

hubbyBOY's eldest sis: "Come out and eat donut. Anqi bought donuts for us."

:D:D:D:D

anyway, went out again to Rivervale Mall & Compass Point to find alphine chocolate for hubbyBOY's second sis but we can't =( kinda disappointed though i was not the one who wants the chocolate luh~but, anyone have any idea about this chocolate?

i just love his company :D

those adopted gifts :D

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

snowman which i saw at marina.

if only during christmas, singapore's snowing.. *fantasize*
if only gifts were never-ending.. *wooooo*
if only everyone's smiling on that day :)

i love festivals! but i love the people who made those days wonderful more :D

plan for dec

2007-12-04T19:41:00.000+08:00

believe it or not. . . suits you

i realised something, since don't know when, i havent start planning my schedules.
i hope it isn't too late to start planning now :) it's alrdy the 4th. and..

5th Dec (wednesday) : EIB Theory Test, Practice for Phase Test, going to purchase my M2 mmc even though i'm changing phone. cos' brother wants my K810i
6th Dec (thursday) : PROJECT. last day for the collection of the X'mas gifts for the CMF children.
7th Dec (friday) : BM2 Test.
8th Dec (saturday) : meeting with the SDC group. OUT with mummy :)
9th Dec (sunday) : work
10th Dec (monday) : Control Test
11th Dec (tuesday) : Power System Test. hubbyBOY and my one-month.
12th Dec (wednesday) : Zhong Chou's Birthday.
13th Dec (thursday) : Brother's birthday.
14th Dec (friday) : no lessons for NP. Start of Holiday. find hubbyBOY :D
15th Dec (saturday) : Jiayi's Birthday. X'mas celebration for the CMF people.
16th Dec (sunday) : Work.
17th Dec (monday) : WORK [not planned yet]
18th Dec (tuesday) : WORK [not planned yet]
19th Dec (wednesday) : out with mummy [not planned yet]
20th Dec (thursday) : WORK [not planned yet]
21th Dec (friday) : Charmian's Birthday. Cuiling's Birthday. LYSS Netball Gathering @ clara's.
22nd Dec (saturday) : WORK [not planned yet]
23rd Dec (sunday) : Cloudy's Birthday. Miss Siti's Birthday. Steven's Birthday.
24th Dec (monday) : Hubert's Birthday. X'mas EVE. going out [not planned yet]. hubbyBOY going BATAM.
25th Dec (tuesday) : HuiPing's Birthday. X'mas!! going out [not planned yet]. hubbyBOY return from BATAM.
26th Dec (wednesday) : S.E.C.S. LAOS CHALET.
27th Dec (thursday) : S.E.C.S. LAOS CHALET.
28th Dec (friday) : S.E.C.S. LAOS CHALET.
29th Dec (saturday) : REST DAY
30th Dec (sunday) : WORK [not planned yet]
31th Dec (monday) : gonggong's death anniversary 2 years le. NEW YEAR EVE. going out [not planned yet]

like WOAH so busy can :D hubbyBOY is so gonna complain again. BUT. he also have to chiong work until 23rd of DEC before he goes to BATAM. so. must see his working shift le lo (:
anyway, gonna start preparing for tmr's test alrdy. CARES all.

i don't like to be maligned. . so you better don't. .

=)

2007-12-03T17:14:00.000+08:00

YAY~ my weekends' SO GREAT! :D

went to orchard to give miss nyoe a surprise on friday with Adeline Li, Adda, Hui Qin, Hui Ping, Del, Im, JessicaTEO and hubbyBOY was good. xiaoyan and her friend came too :D though not that surprising but it was GOOD:) MISS NYOE :D hope you did enjoy your evening in SWENSENS with all of us okayy :) ALL OF OUR NOTES are in the "NEWSPAPER" liaos :D :D :D :D :D do take care in your next school ^^ AND. i know we're all too good for you to forget. CE NETBALLERs JUST RAWKS! :D we're the CHAMPIONS rmbr? :D

saturday was a GREAT DAY too :) except that my memory always FAILS me :X HAHA! anyway, met up with winson and hubbyBOY first for snacks before going in to ESCAPE :D things were GREAT :D and then, when pearllyn came, we had the P-plan :D AHHA. everything's so GREAT GREAT GREAT :D i just love going out with them (: *winkkkz. when are we going in again with samaniah?! :):) right MAYNIAH? :D

WORK on sunday was GOOD :)

mr azlan was too tired today so S&W was on our own. basketball today :D and HAHA. i've improved :D and! i'm tanned up le lah!! =.="x HAHA. anyway, the feeling of exercise was good. BUT THEN, half of it i was complaining to winson la =X HAHA. lunch at campus haven :) and. collected some of the adopted wishes and just by seeing all the wishes coming in, the feeling's so great. i felt so happy and wonderful. and how i wish christmas would be like how i want it to be :)

with christmas tree with the lights all lit up, presents below the trees and ALL the presents' mine, i'll be so fortunate :) i remember i used to wake up in the middle of the night to see if there's present on my table and mummy and daddy had never failed to make this happened. but because, we've all grown, and our celebrations are normally outside, i wont get the present at the very first moment of christmas.. i miss the times when i'm SO SO SO young :D simple wishes (: and i really love my family members =)

samaniah and winson came to my house to sitsit then, took 109 to compass point to find hubbyBOY. cos' he left his cap with me ytd :] okayy, i think i should do my Power System tutorial soon :):):) haha. CLARK QUEY?! [:

neuroticism high?! :D HAHA. definitely not me :D HAHAA! cos' cos' cos'? =D SAMANIAH LA~~ HAHAHA =D my dearest BITCH no.4 =D

have been listening to old songs and those soothing songs :) things ARE so great :) and hubbyBOY; we've been very very very GOOD :) HAHA. but still, PREPARE for my revenge :X HAHAHAHA! ilovemyhubbyBOY rmbr? =X HAHAHA!

when i heard all the songs, i've cooled down. AND then, i realised, HAHAHA. my temper tolerance haven't been very good :D:D:D:D but, i'm gonna be GOOD :) right?! (((:

test week. HAHA. ANQI JIAYOU LE OH! cos i believe i can :D HAHA :D wed's EIB test, friday's NP's test, next mon's gonna be control's test :) it's time to concentrate le. time passes so FAST :) and anqi anqi, YOU CAN DO IT! :)

anyway, does "met a BITCH ANQI PANG" sounds familiar?! :D HAHA.

do you know how to treasure life?

brief update

2007-11-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

woah woah woah :) i think this two weeks alot of people visited http://life-with-choices.blogspot.com ((: asked around and alot suggested that i shouldnt change blog link no matter what the reason is =D so, i'll be a good person and i shall not change :D:D:D

hubbyBOY have been a very sweet guy to me :) he tries to pamper me so many times and i'm feeling so loved. BUT =X something he said spoiled everything =X AHHA! he wanna DRAG me up the bus luh~~ like so evil! haha! anyway, things had been rather packed up these few days. [: there's alot of things for me to do and there's like test tomorrow (:

went to SITEC today and i saw furby, xing ying, chun hao and farid :] yay~~ and i bought a webcam, i bought a hard disk and! soon, i'm going to buy my M2 memory card. but not at sitec :D ^^ oh yah. my brother wants to take my K810i so soon, i shall be free and go out with mummy to find a new phone for myself :D HAHA.

my adopting x'mas wishes only left with ONE LAST ONE!! :D yay~~ ^^ i felt so GOOD :D cos' it'd been like me who did most of the things :))) *satisfied :D THANKS to each and everyone who adpoted at least a wish :]

trying to divide my time properly for school, work, friends and boyfriend :) and hubbyBOY; i'm so sorry that i cant make it today :( NEXT TIME OKAY?

life's so good. i saw clara like after dunno HOW LONG although we just chatted in msn like ytd :D

GREAT GREAT GREAT. tmr's gonna be a great day. saturday too :D
further updates would be done (: and i'm SO good :)

should i change?

2007-11-26T01:54:00.000+08:00

considering whether i should change my blog link :P:P:P:P:P:P
suggestions?

haha! i'm done with my S&W project like YAY!! within a few hours nia :D HAHA! ((:
and! hubbyBOY just bought a Nokia N95. Music Edition de liaos~~ *sian-ed* nvm :D HAHA!
你的是我的。。我的是我的。。 :D HAHAHAH!
=D=D=D=D but he spent like 600+ close to 700 bucks buying that phone okayy. LOL. boy, you've to start saving for your family's x'mas present le (: and i think that i'm not excluded right? AHHAHA! :D

"你是我的.." hehe. was kinda surprised that he'll say that ytd =X like woahh~~ =D
bleahhs =P and "女人是很敏感的" that he super agree with me lah!! =.= lalalala. NOW he hao-lian-ing his phone =.= *kills* HMPF! anyway, i'm sleepy. when he's done with the phone, i'm gonna straight to the bed. HAHA =D he's so evil. adding some sexy girl from friendster =.= HAHA! ----- =D ------- NOW, he's worried that all his GIRLS' no is missing =.= see! how bad is he?! =.=

but,
=) i still love you boy (:

stupid jeslyn

2007-11-25T17:08:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAH :D well, let me say this finish before i end the game (:
hohohoho!! :D think christmas is coming and i'm alrdy getting this atmosphere now! ^^

JESLYN! [brendan's gf] HI! welcome to my blog again! :) uh-oh!! LOLs. why are you always contradicting yourself?! you said it's "HISTORY" then can i know who's the one who is "bringing things up?" now? why tag in my blog talking ALL ABOUT THE PAST?! HAHA! oh. i'm at wrong first?! WOOO~~ what a strong statement :X HAHA! what did i do that was SO wrong?! :X OH! you mean, saying that you treated Brendan like SHIT?! :P:P:P oh well oh well.. YES, i did say that and HAHA!! who gave me the chance to say that?! :):):) and, for goodness sake. if you thinks that i'm the only one who said that would go for Brendan when you two break off, you're definitely wrong. who else said it? nvm. it doesnt matter lah. BUT. HAHA. based on what was happening when i said that sentence you aint clear at all. that was just a quote of the whole sentence which i said?! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D so, why get angry?! oh yes oh yes. angry can~ but, putting me into a list of HATRED?! =X OPPPS! haha. did i say your secret out or something?! :D if you thinks that passerby2 is me, then can i ask you, am i the only one who reads your blog?! oh, if yes, then you'll be so pathetic cos, it's obvious that i'm not the only one who reads your blog! and, if you were good and said no, i'm not the only reader than, girl, am i the only one who hates you?! HAHA! and, agree with it. even if the passerby2 is not me, you can't stop people from tagging your blog if you wanna open your blog to public. AM I NOT RIGHT?! well, like me, i didnt stop you from coming :D:D:D:D well, how do you know that my remarks were right or not?! who are you to thinks that it's "SO WRONG"?! ohohoh. did you not know that different people have different point of views?! HAHA. and OH DEAR. did i open my blog just for you?! i said "REVENGE" and that means that i wanna revenge with you?! HAHA! you mean i nidd to revenge on you?! what happened?! you steal my boyfriend or something?! HAHA. dont be childish. GROW UP. i wasn't talking about you. haha! i don't blame you for taking it as you're the "LOSER" well, i wont stop you from thinking that way :D HAHA though i don't know why the hell you said that :) but, seriously. you should be the one whom should "get on with your own life" (:

i know i know. i know what you wanna see :):):):):):)
BRENDAN SCOLDED ME LE LA~~ :D
HAHAHAHA!

oh well, after this entry, i'm not gonna be tagging at your blog anymore and i shall not disturb you anymore (: HAHA. that doesn't mean that i thinks that whatever i'm doing is wrong :) i can tell you this. i'm doing this for Brendan (: and for he is my friend. i don't wish to see him suffering cos' for years, i've seen him holding on to this relationship and i won't want to see him getting upset over matters like this. AND JESLYN, i'm just gonna tell you this last advice though i really don't know you in person. but whether you want to listen to it or not doens't matter. i'll just do a good deed by telling my part (:

be confident of yourself and brendan la. seriously think, if those colleagues and girl-friends of his can take him away, won't that happen years ago?! treat relationship like a paper clip. it's either you be happy with it, keep it nicely and it will help you or you can choose to dislike it, unfold the angles and destroy the original look of it. BUT. after destroying it, if you know how to help yourself with it, it's fine. but what if you don't and you'll just lose it forever. how brendan treats you, you should know. but, be kind enough to be more considerate in the sense whereby, think about what you're doing and quarrelling with him about. is it worth not. if you think people is trying to break you all up, are you doing nothing except questioning him to save the situation?! do you think someone is not gonna snatch brendan away if you do that?! or do you think that i'm gonna do that?! if not, why are you so happy that i'm attached?! HAHA. be mature enough to think that whatever you're doing now is not working very well. you're younger than me and that doesnt give you a excuse of being childish. got this??

anyway, just wanna say. if you don't change the way about how you think for brendan. it wont help you at all. i've said my part (: and till now, i still thinks that i'm not wrong. but HEY! don't worry you wont be able to read my entries anymore about me and brendan la (:

I'm good :D:D:D:D:D

nothing to update lehh!!

2007-11-24T00:15:00.000+08:00

i'm super ultra tired :( awww* anyway, things are getting so rushed up and some things aint getting into my way. HMMMM. things with hubbyBOY is great :D dont worry (:
work in fuurin was good with good colleagues and good customers (: and of cos, good companion home ^^ YEAPP.
i don't know what to blog. cos' blogging about daily life might bore some people up :X oh ALRIGHT ALRIGHT! i admit! i'm just lazy =X but, i'm just tired nahh!!! =P *whines*

HAHAHAHA! some people OUT THERE is so RIDICULOUS and HILARIOUS. things are getting so AMAZINGLY FUNNY =X can i play the game?! =P

each and everyone of us always have different thinkings and different ways of doing things. but, i'm just abit different from others :] and that makes me special in my thinkings. i may be mature in thinkings. but i may choose not to be. BUT. sadly, some people whom are not mature, wished to be mature =X HAHAHAHAHA! oh well, humans are just that contradicting lahh! :D well, actually my impression on this particular person aint that bad until some "incident" [hubby suggested to use that word] i really ABHOR this person's doing and character. and yes, ABHOR i know, is a very strong word to use =) oh well, if you don't know what is "ABHOR" dont go all the way to dictionary.com =) i'll tell you. it means. HATE but ABHOR is detest something EXTREMELY and i just simply loathe the behaviour :D:D:D:D:D:D

hahahaha! =D hubby, who is just beside me wont bother about what i'm doing now =X but, well, have been looking up for hubby after each day [: HEHE i just simply love you my dearest hubbyBOY :D he calls me DARLINGIRL [his pattern =X ] noticed the shortage of one G :D

alright ^^ working tmr again in LAKES (: michelle will be back tmr? i donno. let's see. since i'm working morning shift (:

HAHAHA. REVENGE! =D

hubbyBOY ; i love you for your acceptance [FOR] my misbehaviours :D:D:D:D:D

busy!! :(

2007-11-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

things are rather hectic for me and that's like so bad luh! :( aww. work on sunday was fine until the lightnings and dark sky which came in the evening which was just before our break time. and heard that michelleTAN cut her index finger and had FIVE stiches onto it like so ewww! i forgot the pain i had years ago when i went to GH to stich my ear. but i believe the feeling was horrible =/ anyway girl, do hope that you get well real soon okayy! the only chance i would see you would be at work. so do not make the only chance vanish :)

was supposedly a long day ytd. but things were cancelled and all. i'm rather happy that i finally could take a break but i actually spent the whole evening doing nothing but just plainly sitting in front of the computer! oh no! i did something. i wrote down on the wishes on the stars :D HAHA. and nothing much.

the rain today made us cancelled our trip down to the factory near tampines ITE. probably get everything done by thurs and let's hope there wouldnt be anymore excuses or reasons for us to procrastinate further(:

had the adopting x'mas wish programme carried out today and the response was very good. thanks to everyone who adopted the very small and simple wishes of the CMF's children. i thank you on their behalf :) *bow -

went to watch a movie at tampinesGV and saw serene :) watched Beowulf and people, that's a very nice movie. a bit of suspension in the movie too though :D anyway, nice intro from serene. thanks :) at least, didnt waste my time :D

sorry jess! i thought you wont be that early. but i was wrong. sorry ehh :( anyway, think about thoroughly the consequences of every move you make first. and think, which you would be happier. would you really be happy if you go back to him?! i hope, when you're thinking about all these, those reasons why you want to be with him wont appear. we wouldnt want to see you getting hurt again. hmmm.

anyway. havent met hubbyBOY since sunday when he came to fetch me to and from work :) honeymoon period, that's what everybody is refering us to but hubbyBOY; we're gonna be different right :D

looked through almost all my friends' blogs and i realised, alot of them are using livejournal. and a lot of things really changed. well, 4e2 gathering this december. gonna be a success right? (:

and. guys, guess what?! i've to work tomorrow :( haha. the reason why i frown is because i'm gonna be VERY tired but well, it's gonna be fine lah hor :D working at fuurin tmr and HAHA! i'm gonna be so dead zZZz. william has always never say no to my request and i shouldnt say no to him :) and i wanna work more next month. i want to save money! for x'mas presents and also the presents that i owe ppl!! :( so meaning. lesser time with my peers :(

test tmr. jasmine's birthday tmr. working tmr. buying of materials for project and checking of prices for fabrications on thurs. np on fri. sat maybe going out. maybe got meeting. i also dont know. sun i've got work. a long yet fast week to go :) i've been very busy but thanks hubbyBOY for being there not complaining YET =X even though it seems like i'm not putting in much :)

alright. i think i should end my entry here. i nidd to bathe and eat my dinner and start to practice for tmr's test. takecare everyone :)

Colour person?!

2007-11-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

woah! had been really busy and tired these few days and that's the reason why i havent been updating my blog :) but don't worry, i'll still blog :D:D:D just that i'll update euu people abit later :X

well, school for the whole week like YEAH, monday - friday. let me give euu a brief update :D tuesday was a horrible day for me! =.=! zZz so, i don't wish to elaborate further. and as for wednesday, ended lessons at 3pm but we stayed back to do some of our projects :) saw wilson in campus haven like after dont know how long. spoke to him then HAA. he phone landed up with me =X AHHA. and then i went home bathed and etc. and then, went out to meet up with my hubbyBOY :D:D went to tampines to literally, WALKing ardd :X anyway, headed back home with hubbyBOY :):) he bought his EGGTARTS from tampinesMALL and then, we sat under 104 :] waited for wilson to come over to collect his phone HAHA! :X

photos that day :D

you see his unwilling face again =.= !! HAHA!

justin from SP was supposed to come down on Thursday but he sickening lah! he was not coming but HE DIDNT TELL US!!! zZz stayed in project room, did some revision for monday's test and then YEAPP. went home after mdm chua gave us some briefings. and when i was in the bus, mum called saying that a negative effect uncle has encounter after doing the operation. =/ rushed home and bathed. went out with mum to fetch ahmah over to Tan Tock Seng to visit uncle. things wasn't that great. but. i really hope he's gonna be fine :] and yes, i must mention that i saw Pei Ru and Pei Wen. my cousins. and they're those who took care of me when i was young :D i havent seen them for quite some time since pei ru got married :( now, she have given birth to child, working outside, driving a car *GASP! time flies, humans really grow with time :) went home and then, jiu sleep early le (:

friday was another long day for me =(=( went to school and then BM2 @ NP lo. after that something frustrating happened. some things just cant get through my mind abt why luh! went to Mcdonalds myself and then headed to hubbyBOY's hse :D heard that his mum was asking what time i'm gonna go his house. HAHA. so heartwarming~ so long since i saw his mum too (: and then, before i entered his house, his eldest sister said something to me and i was laughing lah! i wanted to reply something about BO BIAN de thing but i just laugh through nor :) sat in hubbyBOY's room to do some work. i was being GUAI okay ^^ he BO BIAN have to do his RJ too =P after hubbyBOY's friend called, i decided to head home to let him go out with his friends. HAHA. but he insisted to send me home. REASON?! our status is different ler! HAHA! =.= i jiu BO BIAN lo. =X

hahaha! but hubbyBOY super NOT GOOD !! he bully me! he want to have a TEN MINUTES cold war with me!!! *zrahhh* TEN MINUTES = six HUNDRED seconds = 36 THOUSANDS milliseconds. zZz and then, he DONT let me use his shoulder!! so bad right! *hmpf!*

went to sentosa for BL's committee amazing race. was abit late and only SOME PEOPLE knows why!! and hubbyBOY, samaniah and winson are the only SOME PEOPLE that i mentioned! zZz. DAMN PAISEH LUH! zZz anyway, amazing race. got THIRD :D YAY-ness~! ^^ went to take the skyride and luge with samaniah and winson :)) samaniah was said to be my "partner" LOL!!! dont worry my girl. dont care how the others look at us like one kind. we knows that we are straight!! :D

look how afraid winson was! :X

after the TWO times, we went back to bathe. and. HAHA! that's samaniah's locker and why i took a pic of it?! HAHAHA! you know, there's a lock with the key de right?

she inserted her key HERE. beside's the insert coin! HAHAHA! =X

took skytrain back to vivocity.

okay, headed to BK to eat and then, samaniah i think she got irritated by my whining throughout luh!! =X walked toyrus and all, finally decided to go to the open space, the playground to take pictures :D

and! i saw this CUTE boy wearing red :D i stood there for VERY long just to see what's he is doing :D he's SUPER SUPER SUPER cute! :D REALLY!

our pictures :D

took purple line and then, decided to go sengkang. reached buangkok then msged hubbyBOY to meet up at Compass Point :D walked for awhile, he went to his workplace awhile, and then, to look for a new phone awhile, headed home :] he said that today he let me lie on his shoulder. WHY?! he felt guilty about ytd!!! HMPF! so meaning, if nth happened ytd, he wont lend me ler lo!! zZzRAHhhh!! :) but, still, never forget to take at least a pic :D

work tmr :)
test on monday. meeting up with mei-lin on monday. going Tampines ITE on tuesday. and then, ALOT ALOT! zZz things arent really planned yet but i can predict it's gonna be a VERY VERY tiring week again.

have been rather tired. but, BO BIAN, hubbyBOY wants to see me :X and HAHA. of cos, i would like to see him too, cos' i don't wish him to think wild, i'll meet him up more often. but next monday and tuesday is alrdy out of topic liaos =( nvm! :D we've still got FIVE more days to plan :D

<3s

jeslyn?! childish luh!

2007-11-12T21:00:00.000+08:00

best picture of the day! :)
and samaniah! (know as MAYNIAH in this entry) the luminous PINK watch! :D
AHHAHA!

:))))))

things in school were fine today (: the only things which troubled me was the sunburnt!!! :( it's so painful and my bag strap was hurting me :( *whines!! *frowns-
finally saw meizhen and welfred in school today :D:D and yah! nicholas soon! happy birthday (:
headed to giant after school with MAYNIAH and winson and then, i saw tian2 and serene at tampines interchange ^^v feel so good to see them :DD *wide smile -

waited so long for the bus to giant but MAYNIAH and i did lots of crazy stuffs luh =X and as usual we went unsound luh. HAHA :D hotdog bun in IKEA. and yes, we went to ikea for the hotdog bun only!! LOL!! and the greedy and hungry MAYNIAH and winson ate TWO! =.= i ate ONE only!! haha!! :P headed home and i've been a wonderful girl today okayy! [[: i came back home and bathed immediately luh! :D and i didnt on my computer until 8++pm.

i was too bored in class and i started drawing :D
these are my designs on hands :]

MAYNIAH dared me in drawing this so i anyhow drew lo =P

and this is what i drew on a cardboard :] *pretty*pretty* well, i love the picture drawing :) why? HAHA. feeling :P

anyway, watched Home Décor Survivor 3 :) haha. watched the designs and etc and i really find that both mark lee and bryan wong are smart people and they're really creative with the D.I.Y. designs *GASP! *envy! :D

didnt managed to see jingkai today as i've school and he has got work. but it's fine cos' we both have a way to save money but able to hear each others' voice :D HAHA!

ohohoh! now, jingkai's and mine problem had alrdy settled, i've better energy to disturb other ppl =X WOOPS! well basically, i saw somebody's blog and i was laughing so loudly at this female blogger whom is so childish with whatever she is thinking and doing luh. but i shant mention who =X whoever who wants to know who, may come and ask me. well, i may choose to tell you ehh :D AND of cos, you can also think that the blogger is you :] i won't stop you from thinking that way though. HAHAHAHA! :P and and and. i just hate her luh! :X OPPPS! hahah! i'm sure my hubbyBOY won't object me in playing this game :D MUAHAH! well, all i can advice to this particular blogger is not to think so much luh. it's either you trust your partner or you don't. AND. it's the way BOTH party behave. not just one. i'm learning to be a good girlfriend and i hope i do make one. BUT, i believe my hubbyBOY will guide me along the way :) UPS and DOWNS we would sure go through but, the matter is will we survive through together? HAHA. well, this time, the "contract" will come in position :D HAHAH!

STRONG:)

Jingkai; my boyfriend :)

2007-11-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA!

okay, apparently, i'm ATTACHED :D yeapp. to Mr. Wong Jingkai ((:
well, he wants me to ANNOUNCE it to everyone =.="x so excited for what?! HAHAHAHs. should i go around with a loud hauler saying "HEY! i've got a boyfriend!!!" no right!! =X HAHA! *bleahhhs! well, see, my announcement is so straight to the point unlike this boyfriend of mine love to use story to elaborate about matter. WAHAHAH! how this happened? "BO BIAN LO"!! HAHA!! :D [internal jokes] ay. bo bian, so now, i've got a boyfriend liaos :P [internal jokes] ahahahhaha!

anyway, okay, today's game's good bahh? :) got into quarter final only though ^^v paiisehh for my shootings worr :) ONE LAST TIME - that's our team name. lost in quarter final but i hoped everyone enjoyed the day okayy with suntanning and all :D i'm burnt luh! ADELINE! my body colour also same as euu le. got 2 colours! but.. to be exact, it's 3 :( SO SAD! anyway, ended the day by watching coach's game :) she's fierce luh! :X haha! packed up and went to J8. washed up and there's this cleaner super not good *frowns! and then, headed to pastamania to have our b'fast cum lunch cum dinner!!! :D of cos, to the open space again :D i think, it's really a good place to slack luh! but i was really tired. started yawnning away =X *oppps

headed home by 53 with ping and del :D daniel saw me! and he didnt say luh until i reached home =.= HOW EVIL! anyway, had a long and hilarious conversation on the phone with him and that was when i BO BIAN den become his girlfriend de =X HAHA! :D anyway, reached home!! bathed and rushed for alot of things. call this person. call that person. i realised. another week had just passed. and i've got LOTS of things to do :(

my boy; don't blame me if i've got no time arh =X if not, i'll start with my logics again HAHAHAHA! i know you'll hate me for saying the same things over&over again! :D haha! anyway, thanks, for not giving up on me :] loves <3

ONEoneONEone :)

changes. and changes.

2007-11-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

didnt go shopping today though both mummy and daddy is not working today. went to TTS hospital as forth uncle had been admitted into there since yesterday. i just hope there wouldnt be any problem:) hope the operation next wed would be good ^^ went to expo to find brother at the books sale. but at the same time, i saw expo dift :D and there's also motor show worr. so those who wanna see pretties and sexays, that's the place lah! :)

"what is the thing that never change?"
"changes."

how true:) everyone, everything changes. depending on situation. we met people that change and there's also people who will see the changes in us. as we grow, we realised how innocent we used to be, how mischievous we used to be, how things used to be and the list of all the used to be will just go on. you can walk on a street seeing that this thing aint what it used to be. there's a few types of changes and 2 example of it would be a positive change and a negative change. different people have different opinion on certain stuffs. you may be unhappy, you may be upset and you may even try to make things seems the same as before but, it's just like a deep cut on you which would leave a scar. the cut recovers, the blood stop overflowing but, there! you hand have a scar and that's a change alrdy. and the earth wouldn't stop rotating for your sake for you to get used to the changes. nono. the earth wouldnt. at the same time, realise that you're not the only one having problem. there's also people whom are suffering maybe the same problem as you do but just that they chose to be stronger to look forward.

"Heal the past, live the present, dream the future."

yes. we get upset, but, we still have to face it so, people, get over it. it's easy to say, yes, but, have you thought, so what if you're upset, so what? would that person know? even if that person knows it, will he/she care? what about the others whom care about you? would your mood affect them? i'm not trying to say that if you're upset or unhappy you have to force yourself to smile. NO, that's not the way. talk to someone whom you're comfortable with. can't find anyone? well, although i'm a rather busy person, but people, (i assume that you people whom are reading are whom i know and care for.) IF you can't find anyone, you can talk to me. need no opinions? no problem. just come to me, you only need my ear and HA. no problem, i'll lend it to you :) no booking needed. just give me a ring or a message or even, you can talk to me online.

Friendship and Relationship. which would you people choose?
couples always quarrel as one of their partner put friendship in front of them. but, friends would be unhappy if you spent all your time with your partner. humans are always so contradicting. How to solve this type of problem? If you put both of it at the same rank, how would you ensure that you put it equally? and, would your partner be unhappy that you actually put him/her at the same rank with your friends. would he/she thinks that you treat him/her like a friend more than a partner? and when, people whom are in a relationship, they wont blame, they wont argue about how one person treat the other but why, when there's some hiccups, they would start to rake the past up? blaming you about how badly you treat the him/her. and, if you really treat him/her that badly, why didnt he/she tells you back then? cos' they love you? if they love you, why wont they just tell you to allow you two to walk further? so, isn't human contradicting?

how to work out a wonderful relationship and friendship? maybe, not to perfection but it makes you feels perfect? till today, i'm still asking myself. which couple who are wearing rings are really serious about one another? which of them can prove forever love? which friendship would last you till you're a oldies. which can prove friends forever? these questions were always on my mind every time i see ppl with rings. when i saw a group of friends. when i met with new friends. i admit. i don't dare to get too close with any of my new friends. cos' i don't want to get hurt in later stage or even, neglecting some of friends. i don't know if that would happen but i dont have the courage to try. yes, if you dont' try, you'll never know and seriously, i rather not know.

lollipopz - i used to imagine that we would stay together in a big2 hse and also, opening a shop together separating the jobs according to our character and all. i thought we would all stay in contact and hang out together often till old. we even says that any of our kids is gonna have another NINE god-mothers. i even imagined about my wedding dinner, with lollipopz in one whole table, and inviting them up to YUM SENG. maybe i'm a girl whom love to imagine and day-dream but that was how close we were lah. NOW, seriously, do we still have the name of lollipopz? even if we do, is that just like a empty SHELL without a snail?? well, i don't know. i seriously don't know. we choose to get into our own cliques in between the group. most of us aint in the same school and career, we know new friends, some of us still keep in contact as we still see each other sometimes. and what if, ALL of us were separated to different school, different career? would our friendship goes on and on? would we put in extra effort just to meet up with one another? i don't know. i seriously dont.

"if no one stopped to help, would you?"

all of us have our own commitments. so do i. and i wont say my commitments would be more than theirs. but, if you ask me if i'm willing to pull them together again, my answer would be unsure. why? i'm tired after all the things happening. i seems to have lost all my energy everyday when i reach home. and, 10 people, is one person's effort enough? well, maybe, everyone would be saying, aiya, i also busy and all.. but. i don't know. will 10 of our minds and hearts work together and gather once again? i don't know. humans are just contradicting.

HAHA. so, after i graduate from ITE, would things be the same?? no. but, i definitely don't wish the gap in between all the friendship to expand. the friends i met in ITE are different. i don't know how to explain this. but, they just give you a feeling that they wish that the bond is always there. they give you a feeling that they wants this friendship. so do i :)

commitments are excuses?
really? i don't know. maybe. cos' i don't do time management well. someone said this to me before. so what if i finish my ITE commitments? after i go to poly, i'll definitely have a new bunch of commitments. HA. yes. i agree. i'm sorry. i just don't know time management. but, i'll really try to learn and i'm alrdy learning. people. pls put your trust in me.

i think alot. and that doesnt seems to change..

anything. you decide.

2007-11-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

things were GREAT GREAT GREAT i guess?! (: CE A boys and CE girls' got CHAMPION for basketball and CONGRATULATIONS :) oh well! the games were exciting :D congrats to the other teams too :D and HAHA. no.11 REALLY looks like shen xing zhe luh!

that's yesterday and for today, went to BANK to activate my OCBC card AND winsonLUA! TAMPINES have OCBC BANK! the one that i said was beside the Singapore Post de!!! *arrhh! okay, went back to school as we had NETBALL trng like FINALLY after so long :D i just love the feeling of playing netball :D *LOVES - nothing can be compared to this type of happiness ;) the feeling of freedom, the feeling with no troubles at all, the feeling of closeness, the feeling of warmth, the feeling of stress-free ^^v good shots made me happier and shots that were not in made me wanna work harder to get the ball in (: no stress. AT ALL :D

actually training could last till 8+pm but lights wasnt on. so, we had to pack up at around 7+pm when we can't see properly in the dark :( BUT nvm, trng again on saturday ^^v yesyes! went to tampines LJS to eat dinner with my TOUs and XIAOWEI joined us later on :):):) took lots of photo and chatted alot (: OH YAH. i want to PURIFY! haha! OH YAH! after this sunday's game, i think i need to go for skin-whitening :) my mum sees me and i reminds her about DARLIE toothpaste! =.= *hmpf*! *pouts-

the chat today in LJS reminds me of ITESC and that reminded how free and easy we were playing on court. though we looked kinda stressed up but inside us, maybe not for all of us, BUT most of us, we felt happy deep within us :D fun :):) i miss playing at the indoor sports hall luh! talked about MVP today too, the Best Shooter Award was given to me surprisingly that time round. i didnt expect that to be mine. cos' i think there's always someone better than me. BUT. thanks alot! at least, a good trophy before i leave ITE :) shiTOU. i know, you and i are the same, love to remember things which aint necessary. but you still can jiayou for next year :) though you may not be used to it or whatever, remember, don't give up what you've always loved for some obstacles are infront. JIAYOU okayy! ;D i believe next time, coach won't ask you or your team-mates not to shoot in anymore(: AND. thanks, you've been a very wonderful partner of mine:P our "weird" styles with the team, won the championship during the first year and we both felt the same after the game - HAPPY but not really happy : AND then, we was almost seperated into two different teams but still, we still work together with the team to win the championship :D thankYOU. thanksCEnetballers :D you girls were the best (: i've never felt that type of thrill of training so hard together; getting so close together; going overseas together; group chats before ITESC; getting screamed together; punished to run together; winning together and the supports from one another (: THANK YOU. we train, we fight and we win TOGETHER :D we are a team NOMATTER what! :D

WELL! meeting tmr after school :( and then, thursday holiday. going out with MUMMY!! YAY-ness! :D and then, BM2 test on friday and after that, movie marathon? ((: HAA. i wanna watch BEEmovie and then, winson wanna watch GAME PLAN. and then, we shall see how the time goes :D

i have to stop being so pessimistic!! alrdy am doing what i've not been doing. like, what people always says "what's yours will be yours, no point forcing. forcing brings no happiness." understood. but, i've alrdy done my part. it's your choice to decide. won't force you, won't rush you. maybe, i've to insert more patience and lesser wild thoughts into myself :) take good care and enjoy your one week holiday (: YEAP. i've think through SOMEHOW :D:D

someday... somehow...

finally, i'm free (:

2007-11-04T22:55:00.001+08:00

FACTs and OPINIONs...

OH YEA! :D finally, i'm free to sit infront of the computer to start to think back about what had happened in the past few days :D

last thursday, 1st nov 07, samaniah donated blood :X and i didnt =X NOT because i didnt want luh. but cos, i was sick a week before so was not allowed :D and when we're going home, we went to do donations to the blood bank :] and see the photos for further information on how we helped the blood bank :P and when i reached home, mum asked me not to donate! WHY?! she say will grow fat! URGH! that caught me. BUT nvm, i'm helping the needy in alot of ways [:

well, when we carried all those balloons up to the bus and wherever we went, people were like looking BUT well, i don't care cos! i'm doing a good deed ^^ also, i've that urge to give it to children whom are younger than me when i saw their eyes on the balloons la~ cos, when i was younger, or even now, i'll stick my eyes to the things that i really wants. BUT, in the end, i didnt gave. i don't know what was holding me back but, i regret nah! i could actually make someone happy but i didnt :( i'm sorry kids..

and then, of cos, went to NP for BM2 on friday. having test on the next :( met pearllyn and i left her with winson cos?! i've to go down to Fengshan for meeting nor :( and then, yah, HAHA. some feelings felt within me for the day only xiaotou and shitou noe :) but, seriously, yea, i don't know what got into me luh! chocolates makes me full ;) and that's what i ate in NP until i reached home. but, i still prefer van houten de chocolate :PPP HAHA! choosy huh?! but life's short. so i've to satisfy myself mahh! :D

SATURDAY was SUPER TIRING. woke up at 5am and went out and all, at fengshan, i did BMI and OSTA for the oldies :D and i'm so happy! i'm just like part time doctor :D:D:D:D and and and, when the old people did the modern tai ji, they were so cute :] see the crowd *woah!*

and then, the childrens' performance. DAMN cute. DAMN nice. DAMN high. DAMN shuai :D

and then, mr benjamin yap and mr ernest lim treated us at pizza hut :D:D HAHA. thanks chers! ^^ the pictures are all with the others so YEAHH. be patient :D and when we walk to bedok, we saw this :D PINK! haha! :P super retro bike lehhs! like those in the musical shows :P

went to winson house to do project with samaniah :) and i was like mad luh! samaniah is SO visual! :X HAHA! she knows what i meant :P and i injured myself. minor cut[s] (: i still took pictures of it but i dont think i should blog it down HAHA! like so WU LIAO~ so. anyway, headed to bedok with jessSHITOU :) to meet up with adelineXIAOtou (: went to bedok 85 to eat :D porridge, satays, chix wings, fruit juice AND we didnt took any picture. and, I SAW JACINTA! but i didnt call her luh :) and then, we were SO FULL. so walked back to bedok interchange to have our watermelon :D HAHA. chatted alot when we were walking back luh. AND we saw RAT :X haha! and i was so busy that i forgotten that our charity netball is on sunday! thanks for reminding ehh! *winkk* HMM. they heard me whining the whole night luh! =X HAHAs. thanks OKAY. and hor, I DONT LOOK SAD nahH! =.="x

headed home and then :] surprise?! HAHA. my heart knows why i HAHA-ed =X anyway, thanks for dropping by. though it may just be because "on the way" but still, thanks [: so, got home at ard 11+pm?! HMM.

okay. worked today was okay luh! the crowd came in during lunch time and then dinner time lo.. HMM. hai hao. oh yes, ANYONE wanna work one day on sunday?! 6 bucks per hour :] contact me :)

heard alot of things today like =.= are they telling me these?

Pauline: "when the girl control the guy too much, the relationship wont last long de luh!"
Michelle: "when you stick to him, he'll be cold to you and when you're cold towards him, he'll try to stick to you."

ARE THEY TRUE?!
oh well. i don't know. no one would tells me the answer either :( ANYWAY, i've received my visa card :] DEBIT de luh~ but it's OCBC de :P yeahh-ness! i've got another account. HAHA.

name on card: "Sunday Pang Anqi" :D it's unique and special like whom i am ^^

OH YEAH! :] my baobei BATHED today ((: loves it SO SO SO MUCH!
he's just so guai and loving luh! :D
AND. that's what i wanna keep for life <3s

boy; boy; boy; what have caused me to behave this way? what have caused me to change? what can i do to be better? i can don't bother about my own pride but i won't allow myself not to bother about you and i ...

havent i changed?

2007-11-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

SORRY!

regarding the adopting Christmas wishes project, it was post phoned again cos' the lady still cant give me the wish list yet. i'll update euu ppl soon alright ^^

i'm so tired. with meetings till late, having activities for the whole day and cancellation of meeting up with friends. i'm sorry okay! i'm sorry for those i'm supposed to meet up but in the end i can't make it. I AM SORRY. blame it on my bad time management.

School, NP, meeting at Fengshan's CC and home only at 10+pm today. I AM SO SO SO TIRED.
what about tmr? fengshan's cc at 7am! then project after that AND i havent complete the design! ): ANDANDAND. going out tmr evening(:
sunday lehhs?! free?! NO! i'm working! 11-9pm! zZzz

WEEKDAYS BURNED
WEEKENDS BURNED
WHOLE WEEK = BURNED DOWN!!!!!!

what's insufficient? my love? or my attitude? can't you feel the change in me?

~~no more i dont know pls~~

helping the CMF kids

2007-10-31T19:45:00.000+08:00

MOSQUITO BITES!!!

went to sch for EIB and then, sentosa trip for team building activities(: things were good^^ but have no idea why deCruzBrandon and Kelvin even bothered to go there when they are not interested in these type of activities and also, when they wanna go off when we just reached there for just awhile o.O! HAHA! but i did use my wet sleeve to wet his hands luh! :X HAHA! but anyway, headed back to sch with the bus and then home:) everything's good EXCEPT for the mosquito bites! and i really got ALOT of it larh~! *whine*

OH YES PEOPLE!!!

[click to enlarge]

please do come down and show your love and care to the children who may not have a chance to celebrate christmas like we do. Just a little action of yours would "activate" a smile on their face. DO IT not for yourself, not for me BUT for them!!! :D if you sees this, PLS, pass the msg around. THANKS!!!

WHAT IF I DONT WANT TO BUY A GIFT? CAN I GIVE MONEY INSTEAD?!
of cos! you can pass me the money instead and it's $20. think about it! just a 20bucks can satisfy their christmas so why not do something good?! or, you can gather some of your friends to share the money with you. everything's fine. REALLY.

any queries on this, you can always contact me @ 98716629 :D
THANKSmany!!

~~i replied but i don't know if i should tell you~~

basketball craze!

2007-10-30T18:31:00.000+08:00

" how can i tell you.... ?"

that iloveyou more than life

went to school today for only EPS and its like from 0800h - 1500h luh! ): went to watch the girls' basketball match CE vs CC1 awhile and rushed for lesson:( after lesson, went to watch CC2 vs CW girls' team and followed with CE1 vs CW boys' team and! GREAT JOB CE! esp for the guys' as i didnt stay to watch finish the girls' match. GREAT FIGHT. GOOD ENDURANCE! :):):) jiayou! jiayou! jiayou! :D:D:D:D:D:D

for EPS today; i learnt that Electro Static is DANGEROUS. i mean, REALLY DANGEROUS. even without having any contact with the cables and all, you might die. and i also learnt why doors of the substations are pulled outwards :P also also also, the power stations and what teacher always emphasize is the ST.James power house as it was one of the first power station(: BUT! i'm so gonna fall asleep today. theory is BORING luh~ and POWERsystem is ALL about theory~~ this is so killing me!! :(:(:( anyway, winson said that my eye bags were serious! :(((( i wished to sleep earlier but ........................ nvm(:

OH YEAH! had a good chat with xinying ytd and was like wooooww~ haa! updated* =D xinying! basketball on tuesday should be fine((: provided, i don't tell my mum or she's so gonna nag at me. but!BUT!but! it shouldn't be a problem :P SEEYA real SOON :D
chalet in december with the SecsLaos' Grp like.. WOAH! :D:) but, regarding the LAOs trip mahhs~ HAHAs. see how ehhs. by friday, i'll make up my mind ^^v

whole of engineering is going sentosa tmr for Amazing Race and then, by tomorrow, i'll get the wishlist from the CMF and i'll have to start doing the project le. WenXin's birthday will be on the 1st, and we'll be having BM2 on the 2nd. andandand, should be able to meet up with pearllyn:) also; on the 3rd:D we'll be helping up for the student seminar's project thing. and then, working 11-9pm on the 4th. like. AGAIN, no resting date.

; boy, i might have disturbed you for the past few days no matter online, sms or whatsoever. anytime, when you feel irritated, just speak up your mind alright ^^ BUT can't blame luh! you don't want to sms me so, i sms you nor! :P we're both busy but what if one day, i'm really tired and i've got not enough strength to be optimistic and hold on to what i'm doing now?? what if i've to take a break from everything that i'm doing? would you take over me by holding on??? would you provide me a space near within your arms to rest? would you? but no matter what, iloveyou :)

Yes; i love to be loved by you

songsLYRICS

2007-10-29T18:52:00.000+08:00

nothing to post up today as lessons were as usual, had test. result should be fine(: was late for TPS as we went to watch the bball girls' game :] let me share two songs with you people which are now uploaded in my blog:D:D

Do You Remember
Ohhhohhhh Yeah
Ooooh
Oohohh

Remember we'd be up all night
Talking 'til the morning light, yeah
Like the way it used to be
Those simple days
Just you and me, mmmm

I think baby I know
What's on your mind
Cuz you look like you've
Got something to say

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe it just ain't my way

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer liesIn you, in you
The answer lies in you

Remember we used to laugh and say
No one understood our way
And there were times
When you would cry
And came knocking
On my door
And I was there
To shelter your pain

I think baby you should
Get that off your mind
Make it seem like
A brighter day

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe I can make it my way

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer liesIn you, in you
The answer lies in you

The answer girl
Lies within your heart
Take a look inside

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

In you, in you
The answer lies in you

In you, in you
The answer lies in you

In you, in you
The answer lies in you, yeah

Love to be Loved by YOU
Can't believe I'm standing here
Been waiting for so many years and
Today I found the queen to reign my heart.
You changed my life so patiently
And turned it into something good and real
I feel just like I felt in all my dreams.
There are questions hard to answer, can't you see...

Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life?
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light.
When you touch me, I can touch you
To find out the dream is true.
I love to be loved by you.

You're looking kinda scared right now,
You're waiting for the wedding vows.
But I don't know if my tongue's able to talk
Your beauty is just blinding me,
Like sunbeams on a summer stream
And I gotta close my eyes to protect me.
Can you take my hand and lead me from here please?

Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life?
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light.
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true.
I love to be loved -
I need to be loved -
I love to be loved by you.

I know they're gonna say
Our love's not strong enough to last forever.
And I know they're gonna say that we'll give up
Because of heavy weather.
But how can they understand
That our love is just heaven-sent,
We keep on going on and on
Cause this is where we both belong.

Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life?
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light.
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved -
I need, yes I need to be loved -
I love to be loved by you.
Yes, I love to be loved by you

HE... said i was not his gf

2007-10-28T14:08:00.000+08:00

"....... She not my gf i not her bf..."

things ain't that bad yesterday. had a very fulfilling meeting at BK (compass point) and then, tried to find my way to jingkai's blk. oh. i asked him out for lunch the night before. so yahs. went up to his hse. upon his request. why i didnt wanted to go upstairs initially was because i didn't want any unneccessary remarks from anyone. and then, finally his sis sms-ed him or then he replied something, wrongly, to me. HAHAH! i'm not angry about him saying that i "suddenly wanna meet" when i actually asked him out one day before BUT the main thing is i didnt know what to do when i saw that sms and i had to still, tell him that he actually sent to the wrong person. oh HAHA! so, yea. still, thanks for the lunch company (:

just look at his unwilling smile~ and his fav. number, SIX.

oh well, came home when he was going for work. SLEPT till 7pm and then, woke up to chat with jessshiTOU. and both of us got crazy about how cute, how shuai and how sweet is aaron carter. and of cos, how we will melt when he did the same things to us :D:D HAHA. of cos, we have some emo talks again nahh! ;P well, that's what girls always talk about. ^^v and then, after finishing my dinner and etc, went to whitesands to rot with paul, fabian, TWOwinson :] oh yeahh. lorts of surprising faces. eg: JASONwong, DAannqi!!!!, NIGELjeradrajoo(forced by me actually *bleahh!), XIANming, IAN, and MANYmanyMORE ~ :D i'm missing the life in LYSS luh~ HAHA. okay, our sleeping area was at the exhibition centre in the future for the planes in CHANGI coast road ((: my checkpoint was the best with toilets, water, sea, trees and seats ^^v

flipped&flipped before i can sleep awhile but wasnt entirely asleep larh! i was still kinda clear what was going on. woke up at ard 4am; washed up, got prepared, given briefing and gave briefng today :] HAH. oh yes, did i not mention, i'm joining LYSS ex-lysian link which is simplified by saying; ALUMNI :) so, i'll be helping with LYSS in some events and etc :] so jessCHANfurby, i'll not be not-used-to the free time :D somemore somemore, i've alrdy have some plans of going oversea with classmates after GRAD :D HAHA. think before poly starts, i'll be filled with activities too :D HAHAs. anyway, SO back to the REAL RUN at CHANGI, i was there to be the official and HAH. saw daphne with her bf :) so sweet huh?! HAA! sososo, went to eat and went home K.O-ed!! =X and i slept on the floor luh! HAH! :) and it started raining and i woke up only when dad didnt wanted me to sleep further which was ard 6+pm i guess? :P

Control Technology theory test tmr :( and then, lesson till 4.30pm BUT i want to watch the BBALLgirls' game and adelineLIxiaotou is playing! :D i want to go down nahh!! *sa jiao* HAHA! anyway anyway, GOOD GOOD. samaniah should be back by today :D and HAHAs. hmm. i have been entertaining vikNASH to chat luh. like so random can~ =X coscoscos. i seldom chat so long with him de lo~ AND to make it worst, i still dun have the study mood luh~ later nahh!! HAHAs. yes, PROCRASTINATION. but actually i flipped it thru days ago lerh. so should be can luh~ later recap jiu hao lerh(:

yesyesyes, HAHA. i wanna try something different today :D don't know this perserverance can last how long and how long he* can tahan me but HAHA! boy, you know i love you so. AND, say i'm pestering or whatever, i'm so gonna love you :D you should be able to feel me.. so, when are you putting your love back into me? :] HAHA. like so BU YAO LIAN right? :D HAHA. heck care nahh. FIRSTtime for a guy and maybe the LASTtime :) cos' boy, i don't want any others except for you ((: *stubborn* and let me. i'll be waiting till the day you're sure about your feelings~ :] whahahaha! hope i didnt impose any stress on you :D *bleahhs <3s>

OH WELL, uploaded a new song and yes, by AARON CARTER haha! jessSHITOU nahh! hahas! made me go CRAZY over him again (: HAHAs :P he SUPER keai SUPER shuai can! [: *SCREAMS!!!

loveyouMOREthanMANYMANY <3s

things changes

2007-10-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

woOoo~ firstly, thanks shiTOU for sending me the webby for photo editing but :D i still want the adobe want. cos' some effects, this programme cant do :) still, thankiew ^^

alright, samaniah is not in singapore again! *frowns! she's in MALAYSIA for blaze 2. so good! :) rmbr to miss me ehhs girl (: HAA. did she like sneezed or something nw? :P went for Microprocessor lesson today. theory was zZzZzZZz~~~ but practical was WONDERFUL! haha! it's good (: it's abit like C++ programming and also abit like PLC (: and of cos, the calculation is engineering maths and IE mathematics (: REVISION*!!! went to cafe 1 and ate lunch with xinying! :D school isn't that big but i seldom see her nahh! i always see wenxin, chanel, meizhen, ben and some others BUT not her! LOLs. she's a nice person and would definitely be a good person to talk to when you're feeling down ((: why? she can make euu go crazy de!! :PPPP

went to NP for BM2 again and lesson was a very fast one but luckily we're still catching it :D MOL was good luh. but the revision i did was like SHUCKS! so many careless! *BANG! time passes very fast today and meeting up with pearllyn next friday after her lesson for dinner (: like so wonderful ^^v HAHA. went to J8 with winson :} and then, took 53 home (: was having headache seriously from morning so, goody winson decided to send me home. HAHAHAs

speaking about winson, he made a bet with me today regarding a maths qns and I WON! :D so so so, he's gonna bring me to japan "illegally"=X HAHAHAHAH! don't know the joke? come and ask me anytime [: wahahahhaha! then then then, please help me to pray for winson that he wins 4D, TOTO or whatever, with grand prize :D i've reason for saying that! haha!!!!! ((: dude, i shall thank you first ((:

meeting tomorrow at compass, going luch after that? and then, home to rest awhile before going to changi to stay over.. and BROTHER is bringing a girl home tomorrow. like.. =.="x stunned!

anyway, wont be home tomorrow so i doubt i'll be blogging tmr luh~ sorry ming yan! i know i supposed to meet you tomorrow =X next time okay?! maybe sunday? see how okay? ((: cheer up! and weihao!! ((: NICE TO SEE YOU after so long ^^v haha! sure would find some time to chat with you derr! haha! how can i not meet shuai ge nehhs? ((: and YUPP, people, anything can contact me thru sms/call arhh =D

i'm sleepy (:

nights world ^^

:(

2007-10-25T18:38:00.000+08:00

dreams are meant for sleeping....

WHO HAVE PHOTOSHOP CD?! the one jasmine gave me was only for 30 days :( and nw, i cant use le. i dl-ed CS3 but the trial is also over and I WANT TO EDIT PHOTO! WHO HAVE?!
*yawns! i'm so tired ): test is on next monday like. WOAH so fast!! :( things are getting freaking fast! OH MAN! =/ sometimes, i do need a good rest but where do i find the time? is it that my time management sucks or issit that i am really busy? till now, i still can't find a answer. sometimes, things aint just what we planned.

PROJECT PROJECT PROJECT!
it's really not simple and i hope it wont pull my grade down :(

lalalalalala~

no one knows what happened last night
except for you and me.
no one knows what's for future
even for you and me.
the thing we could know is only,
what we want to do,
for our future.
for our life.
things cocked up as and when,
i agree. but!
as a human,
we are supposed to find solutions
and eventually, solve it(:
i dont expect much..
i dont need much..
just simple words..
simple words from you.

our "In the Little Window" :D

"in the little window WOOSH!!" (:

GOOD FRIENDS ARE MEANT FOREVER :)

modules.

2007-10-24T17:11:00.001+08:00

TEXTBOOKS!

i need textbooks!! :(( teachers are teaching without textbooks and nothing can enter!! :(
first lesson for EIB and the teacher is SUPER beng and cocky nahh! just watch the way he take things, show us and talk to us. AND listen to the way he talk!! *RAHH! he's gonna be a trouble maker luh! :( no matter how unhappy, i still didnt walk out cos' i nidd to learn. but the topic is rather interesting cos' it's so COOL :D i was like "WOAH-ing" all the way and i think electricians are REALLY AMAZING! :) Power System, i was playing the game in my hp and i wasn't paying attention! know why? cos' no textbook and he was starting to talk about theory!!! and people who knows me, know, i seriously ABHOR theory!! and guess what? EPS is 60% on theory! :( oh man! Microprocessor, didnt go for the first lesson so i don't know anything. and then, Control Technology. We've got the txtbook alrdy! :D and i'm so happy! :D at least, for tmr's lecture, i shouldnt be sleeping =X *bleahhs CDP and TPS are both lifeskills module and i'm joining R class on monday for TPS.

other than school module, i've got Bridging Maths 2 in NP to concentrate too and it's a little tough luh. and HAHA. did i mention about the lecturer? he like to "welll....." so much! and i asked my classmates today, why, are we having all the cocky and old teachers? it's so SIAN-ed. no moral support at all nahh! and for my student seminar (hong kong) that project is being carried out alrdy! i'll be going for the launch on next saturday. my the other xmas' project, fufil dreams for the CMF children is still under preparation. AND for my module's project, i'm stucked. with no materials. roughly, tomorrow, with the help of winson getting the equip, we'll be doing alrdy. and S&W project, what to do all these we all haven't even start to think like zZzz. everything is procrastinating!

so fast, another week is gonna pass. like. WOAH. time really flies!! sat, going for meeting for my xmas' project meeting and night for the real run thing till sunday morning. i'm trying to plan something for sunday afternoon but don't know if i would be too tired. just hope mummy is not working so that i can go out lor. i just miss going out with mum :)

为了什么让我那么脆弱？？

2007-10-23T20:00:00.001+08:00

it's time to FOCUS.
stress, please leave me! i need some energy to move on! i shall not let stress win me (:

it's just the starting of the term and i'm feeling this way.
modules are hard to understand but i'm gonna overcome it.
i've to stop my holiday mood alrdy! :(
no more laziness, no more sleeping late, no more thinking about stuffs which ain't that important now.
all i want, better days, better mood and better future (:

ANQI, JIAYOU!

:( tired I LOST MY RULER!

2007-10-23T12:41:00.000+08:00

i've been so tired these days especially during lessons and i really cannot concentrate! :(
lessons ended early as we requested not to have theory lesson since we're not having any textbook with us. did a lil` of practical and MOSES TOOK MY RULER ~~AND RANAWAY!!~~ :(

feeling so lost,
feeling so tired,
feeling so restless,
i'm angry with myself for not being able to sleep well or early.
i'm angry that i can't concentrate.
i'm angry that my temper for these few days are bad.
and i whined like nobody's business today :(

bring me to a better me..

tired.

2007-10-18T21:49:00.001+08:00

school started for like a week alrdy! *woah! =D and we finally started with lessons on thurs :D but it was lecture for the very first lesson :( ii ALMOST fell asleep inside the lecture can :(:(:( i still believe teachers whom are qualified to be a lecturer would definitely had learnt skills from jigglypuff~! they know how to hypnotize people and that's like so scary luh! =/

ANYWAY, had been rather busy for this whole week. school on monday, lyss on tuesday, school on wed - fri. NP on fri, work on sat and sun. Birthday month also huh?!

Bernard's on the 2nd, Vhiska's on the 6th, Samaniah's Birthday on the 20th, Choon Seng's on 21st, Winson's on 22nd, Jennifer's on 23rd. like.. WOAH!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY people!! :D

ii owe bernard present, i owe samaniah present and i owe winson present. OH MAN! and i've been so busy that i can't work lately! :( *frowns! and without working, and without getting money from mum, i'm going BROKE. i can't withdraw anymore money luh! i nidd to save up! and i havent bank in any money for MONTHS luh!! :((

things are getting packed up and i'm so tired :(

who will sayang me to bed?

ilovehim :)

2007-10-17T21:47:00.000+08:00

watched finished [[黑糖瑪奇朵 Brown Sugar Macchiato]] ;
browsed through lyrics of songs ;
listened to the lyrics closely ;
browsed through my past emails ;
browsed through my photo albums ;

imissALOTofstuffs! and at the same time, i've sorted out alot of stuffs :) YES! i've let go! but what i've let go is not the feelings for you but the sadness that were caused during this period of time :D i'm fine nw :D alot better ^^ nope. of cos' not because we're together or whatever larhs. dont be dumb! =X he wanna give up de ehhs. so he won't even think about being together bahhs (: nonono! i've not got another boyfriend nahh :)

it's just simple :) i don't ask for much (: as long as he don't stop me from loving him, i'll be fine! ;D also, at the same time, i do not have any energy or time for him, so why waste my energy to be sad and also, why waste both of our time discussing about this matter? :D if he really love someone else, i should give him my best wishes :) by then, if he got together with another girl, then it'll be my turn to give up nor. I've alrdy done what i'm supposed to do so.. HAHA (; positive thinking. that was my goal for this year nehhs. HOW COULD I HAVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT?! :)

i'm good. i'm really good (: he don't have to love me, as long as i know, iiLOVEhim :D i know who i love, i know what i'm doing :P

WASTE OF TIME

2007-10-17T12:28:00.000+08:00

things are BAD today. first time in my whole ITE life, no one pressed the bell when reached our bus-stop =.="x and everyone got down one stop after tt =.="x after that, not much ppl came for EIB and EIB was cancelled. and you know what?! we were supposed to have EIB for the whole day. and actually teacher wanted us to go back at 3pm and all of us said no =X so.. went to tampines with Samaniah and Winson. saw adelineLIxiaotou. her hp useless de =X !!!! HAHAs! joking arhh :P but shiat! she saw me doing something so ugly =.="x! went to had b'fast at BK, walked ard and home! :) i'm sleepy! go rest awhile. NIGHTS! :D

stress for project, i can feel it..
i'm stepping foward alrdy.. what else do you want?

not changing URL.

2007-10-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

DECIDED. i'm not changing my URL.. at least for now(: school had started and i can predict it's gonna be a VERY tiring term with my studies, projects, work, friends and ex-lysian links' stuff *pouts- :( and of course, new semester with new module and not forgetting, my role being a treasurer.

I've never had a relax role when doing a treasurer. HAHA. maybe, it's just my maths that fails me that's all. till now, i still tell ppl that i failed my maths for O's though i passed it onmy 2nd try. Seriously, being a little EMO luh~~ i didnt regret staying in ITE instead of not going RP or any other poly after my O's for the 2nd time :D without staying, i won't be able to play for ITE College East for NETBALL, without staying, i won't be playing for POL-ITE on behalf of ITE. i played badly this year i admit but, the results doesnt matter now, it's the process of training together with the team, suffer, get tired, drenched with perspiration's and of course, seeing the smiles of confident and the smiles on everyone's face.

without staying in ITE, i won't go for the LAOs trip, the HongKong trip and the most friendly trip, PENANG. without those trips, i won't grow with whom i am today. without those trips, i wont be able to say hi to alot of ppl when i sees them in school.

if i didnt stay in ITE, i won't get so close with Samaniah and Winson. they are seriously wonderful people whom can tahan my temper, my craziness and my singings =X

last semester alrdy, and i'll leave ITE after that. i will definitely still go back to watch all the netball matches I PROMISE! :) life in ITE changed me ALOT. i've learnt stuffs i nvr learnt in my secondary school. i've gained friend that i'll never get in secondary school. i've the best netball team which no other school would have. love life i'd learnt in ITE is definitely more different and more of a mature one. i know a better way of how to face life and a better knowledge of netball. i used to think i REALLY love netball but the love didnt actually mature until i'm in ITE :) i appreciate, iREALLYdo.

was rotting by the swimming pool just ytd with samaniah when we could go off early. we spoke alot and went crazy like we always used to be. and of cos, not forgetting those EMO talks :) was talking about after graduating, will we still get in contact and be able to get so close. HAHAs. i wouldnt even dare to promise. BUT, girl, i'll try.. i really would. cos' i need this friendship and also not forgetting about my CEnetballers. i need and really appreciate you girls. i'll really would try (:

i always put friendship in front of relationship until recently, i've lost someone even before being together. i was too upset that i almost neglected everyone. i know you girls are always there preparing to listen. i'm sorry but i can't bring myself to open up regarding this problem. cos' i wasn't prepared and i really couldnt accept it. it was a hard knock for me. BUT, thanks for not asking much about the matter be it because you didnt bother to ask or didnt wanted to ask because you're afraid it'll hurt me further. THANKS:)

like what shiTOU said, i can overcome it de! cos i'm shiWEI and yes XIAOtou, i'll jiayou de cos' i'm your DAtou ^^ and dude(you know who you are:D ), thanks for keeping quiet even when you know what's going on. thanks for trying your best to let me forget the pain.

i need to go back to the one who would concentrate on the important things de ME. the one who is STRONG and will always SMILE no matter what would happen. from the book i've read, i'm not being stubborn, i'm being PERSISTENCE :D with persuasion and persistence, i'll definitely get to my way :) alright. EMOshit finish le (:

bread mum got from the new coffee shop :D CUTE RIGHT.
mr turtle :D and mr bear2 :D

when i sent you that email, i'm already giving my first step..

goodbye jingkai.

2007-10-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

my flu is REALLY BAD :(

"Why did I let myself believe... Miracles could happen?"
"now my heart is empty"

..... bid GOODBYE and so long..
it's time to let go..

the fact that i don't want to face...

'Cause I'll never be with you.'
'But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.'

YAWNS :O

2007-10-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

i'm TIRED *yawnns!!! woke up by winson's call like... THANK DUDE! oh my freaking shit. and i simply can't rmbr if i even did set alarm luh!!! okokay. anqi, you've gotta stop being so EXAGGERATING! :D haha! cooled down and got myself ready and went to took a cab down to changi ferry terminal and i tell you.. it's so shameful of winson for i'm like the one protecting him! and.. he's a GUY!!! okay, this is what happened.

we were.. literally LOST and thus, we headed like anywhere that seems to be the place it should. SO, went near to this place where there's security guard and came a few wild dogs. and one of it started to do some stretching and winson got scared out of his shit! =.="x okay, i admit i was a little afraid but that's after i saw the dog doing some stretching and came towards us BUT, hey! i've been like chased by wild dogs when i was like primary 3 or something?! and i'm still having the phobia BUT at that point of time, i've to like cool winson down and ask him NOT to run. seriously, if he runs, we'll be in DEAD SHIT. cos' he walked faster and faster =.="x

nevertheless, we got out of the place of SPIDER WEBS! *ewwww* and got to the place like finally with the help of the shuttle bus (: recki-ed the place with Fabian, Ghazali, WinsonLYS, Paul and WinsonLUA and HAHAs. i'm so gonna take picture on that day at the changi beach park ^^ it's just... SO BEAUTIFUL! (: gave paul his VERY belated bdae pressie and yahhs. we took the shuttle bus back to Pasir Ris and headed home soon :)

reached home and ate maggie and went to AHMAH's hse like FINALLY! and then, guess what i did when i was there? =X ii slept! HAHA. ii was so tired that when my mum asked me to wake up, my eyes couldnt open. HOW LONG havent ii slept so tightly? ii guess, it had been a week alrdy. HAHA. how time flies~

headed home after dad's dental and then, back home for MOVIES :D
watched High School Musical 1&2 :D iiLOVEthe songs. anyone have any to send me? (:

and oh dear, school's starting tomorrow and for the whole holiday it seems like i've only rested and relaxed for a day which was today?! :( OH MAN! and my timetable is like ending at 5pm for most of the days! and S&W for the first period of lessons. gosh! would anyone actually turn up for that particular lesson?! ANYWAY, leaving that aside, i'll show what is my timetable like so that you people can date me out (: HAHA!

Monday: 11am - 4.30pm (NO BRK)
Tuesday: 8am - 3pm (BRK 12-1pm)
Wednesday: 9am - 5pm (BRK 12-1pm)
Thursday: 8am - 5pm (BRK 11 - 1pm) OMG!!!!!!
Friday: 8am - 12pm, NP : 1pm - 5pm!!!!!!

zZzz this is so KILLING instead of THRILLING~ =.="x
and i'm working on the 20th and 21st which means, for my first week of school week, i guess.. it's BURNED! and definitely, my OUTSIDE and IN MODULE project have to get started and THIS IS SO KILLING ME! time is running out. i've got no time to get my mind running wild. GET ME BUSY, GET ME TO THINK. i'll forget about the pain.. at least for that moment.

:(

2007-10-14T01:29:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA! ii EXPOSED butchy from doing something secretly :D shan't EXPOSE him infront of everyone :) ask him or you can ask me personally ^^
dumb lehhs him! =.="x
anyway, went to do report today and sent it over to Mr. Goh alrdy. don't know why, but my mind was never quiet and blank....

every steps i take seems like i'm leaning on a pricked ground.
every rhythmn i heard seems to be flying knives towards me.
every msg i received, disappointment was what i've got.
every words i sent seems like i throwing parts of my organ.

days after days, it's still the same..
i still feel the same from the very first day where this "accident" happened.
thinked about possibility about what would be the result if i acted in another way.
but nvm...
"it's over"

hais...

2007-10-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

woke up SUPER EARLY today to prepare myself going to NP. BUT, i couldn't get down the bed. both of my knee caps and my right ankle were hurting so much that i really ALMOST cried :( anyway, got myself out and i was walking in a very DIFFERENT manner and dad said this.. "you better stop playing sports" =.="x *hurtt* ignored and bathed and etc and mum came telling me this "you so long nvr play le then you play for so long ytd sure pain de luh. so don't play le luh" =.="x *hurttx* went out to hougang mall :) took 151. HAHAHHAs. how long was that? (:

went to NP with Lionel, BenjaminLOKE, Winson and Samaniah (: and lionel was LATE! grrr~

finally met up with Samaniah and don't ask me why was she there :X she has her reasons ^^ and i think that the main reason is tt she misses me TOO MUCH~ :D

went to suntec's arcade with winson and samaniah. and i spent another 10 dollars there :( playing the same thing, sweat it all out :) feeling not any better and went to walk ardd and saw FRANKIE FOO~!!! :D:D went to starbucks to slack and then to marina to watch movie.. Mr WOODCOCK. not very nice luh. but not bad (: i don't know. i can't laugh for quite a few scenes lehhs. NEWYORK NEWYORK was postphoned due to my fever and sore throat ;P went to had mcdonalds instead.. HAHAHAs. like no difference =.="x and my throat truly hurts nw :(

headed to city link and ii saw MICHELLEtan, YiXing ANDDD!!! guess who?! XINYU!!!!!!! :D it's been like hw many thousands of days havent ii see her!! omg!! :) miss her SOOOOO MUCH! chatted with them for awhile and i really miss those times :D and michelle told me something which i feel that she know something is going on.. zZzz. headed home. winson sent me home due to my fever :) thanks dude! (: reached home and HAHA! i'm half dead! report not finished yet! :(

oh YEAH! we did went to Fountain of Wealth but i didnt wish for wealth. ii wished for something else instead.... =)

you see... she missed me tt much that she wanna lick me :P

basketball..

2007-10-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

ytd indeed had meeting after chalet at compass point instead of school. after the meeting went arcade on my own (:

the girls i dated today :)

went to meet up with jessCHAN (furby), huiping (ping), jessTEO (shiTOU) and jessCHAN's sister and her sister's friends for basketball session :D know me well enough to know why basketball was good ^^ after that ... went to safra for dinner (:

my chocolate milk shake :P

my fish n chips :P

and i think they are the reason why i'm having fever and sore throat now :((((((

took 21 home and jessTEO had to take 109 to her aunt's hse so accompanied her to wait for the bus and REALLY spoke alot to her.

Thanks for the ear girl :)

back from chalet.

2007-10-10T11:47:00.000+08:00

so feel like changing my blogskin nehhs! but i'm so tired and lazy :X spent 3D2N at Aloha Changi chalet. WAHAHAHAs :) too EMPTY, TOO little bed:P but it wasn't that bad afterall luh! at least i had my fun with "Snaps", "Bluff" and "HeartAttack" :D hahahahas. of cos, without forgetting the water bomb game which makes me cleared the mess like a maid nahh! hahas! further details about cleaning shan't be mentioned (: hahahahahahahahas! i can't forget how chun hao and xing ying hide in the toilet to prepare the water bomb and afraid of getting the bomb from us! :D HAHAHAHAs. dun understand? let me tell euu.... ^^

*****anqi wiping the floor with towel (:
towel is dirty, needed to be rinsed.
went to the toilet upstairs. ****

anqi: "who is inside the toilet?!"
(cos.. at that time, nobody would be bathing)
chun hao: "ME! i'm bathing! hahahahha!"
anqi: "=.="x "
chunhao: "hahahahhaa"
anqi: "DONT KNS LUH! let me go in lehh. i wanna wash the towel!"
chunhao: "what you want? hahahahs"
anqi: "i wanna wash the towel!!!!!"
chunhao: "wait.. i bathing!!!"
anqi: "=.="x OPEN LUH!"
chunhao: "i bathing!! hahahahhas"
anqi: "OKAY LUH! i splash euu i turtle! =.="
chunhao: "i really bathing!!!! hahahas"
anqi: "QUICK LUH! i swear luh!"
chunhao: "really arhh.."
anqi: "YAHH!! if i splash euu i turtle!"
***door opened***
and i saw xing ying with the hose, ready to splash!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHs!!!
like firewoman!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAS!

if you're not laughing, it's okay, it's meant for me to laugh when i read this in my future (:

oh yahh! chatted with miss quek in the noon, about relationship.
everything is a process.. if it's yours, it's yours.
to maintain a relationship, you've to balance with your partner.
there's always UPs and DOWNs.
there must always be one person holding on to the relationship.
getting into relationship is good.
cos' you gain more experience in handling relationship.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHs

well.. HAHAHAs. learnt alot from miss quek, mr goh, mr chua, mr tan and of course, mr chow (: next semester starting alrdy and let's hope things would be better :) and oh yahs.. realised something....

MIRACLE DONT HAPPEN! ... at least to me.

CHALET TMR

2007-10-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

met up with winson today and took 12. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAs.
went to meet up with jeric, lionel, benjaminLOKE, chunhao and adrian today at bugis ^^
that was the only moment which i thought about nothing else other than LAOs trip :)
designed the teachers' collage and also the HEAD COMMITTEE's MEETING for the chalet:)

HAHAHAHAHAHHAs!
we spoke like chalet is like a few weeks to go but infact, it's just TOMORROW! ;)
going school tmr for some CLEANLINESS thingy to solve then we would head to the chalet alrdy ;)

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAs...
let's hope no beer no alcohol would be introduced tomorrow~

skipped yishun for the childrens' home tmr.
going chalet for the next 8th-10th then on the 10th itself, i'm going school to complete some stuffs for the project outside module. 11 thinking whether should i work (: 12th going NP and then, if nothing goes wrong, NEWYORK NEWYORK. 13 working morning bahhs. HAHAHAHHAs. and then trial for my real run thingy on the 14th. school starts on the 15th:)

AND in between the dates, i nidd to complete my 800 words report and presentation on the LAOs trip. and of cos' get done with my outside module project and the in-module project need to be worked on. OMG. time is running out.

so what if i'm feeling this way? HAHaHAHAHAHAHAHs
so what if i'm tired? hahahahahhahahhahas!

that's how life's gonna be (;
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahas!

changed.

2007-10-07T11:24:00.000+08:00

ALERT ALERT!

changing NEW URL again! (:
want it?!

HAHA. take from me!! hahahahahas!
will be changing in a week or two (:

humans change
like i always thought..

he gave up

2007-10-07T01:17:00.001+08:00

WHAT A JOKE?!

hahahahhaha!

winson's in hospital!

2007-10-06T22:11:00.000+08:00

my butchy teddy bear cum my fei wen nan you is hospitalised! :(

i'm seriously worried.. just hope he'll be fine.
hope no operations or anything needed.
*prayy*

:) childrens..

2007-10-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

went to the headquarters of Singapore Childrens' Society today(: had a great chat with JEAN, the executive of the society. and had another short discussions at mcdonalds' with kekboon, michelle and sohbee^^Went to tampines after that to meet winson. i actually called him and asked him if wanna go out with me not. HAHA! anyway, i woke him up from his sleep luh =X cos' my ipod earpiece is PERMANENTLY SPOILED. thanks to my brother! *angry* so.. any sponsors?! :X HAHAHAHAS! joking! :D cos' i've bought a Sony earpiece to replace it. but i guess that's for temporarily. i guess... my ipod nano wont spoil due to the earpiece bahh?! so. got him out from his bed. and HAHA. actually he was feeling stomach upset luh but he's still willing to go out with me. HOW NICE :D went to watch balls of fury cos we don't know where to go:D it's nice luh ^^ and. his 150 bucks is still with me :X HAHAHAHAs. he said that he wanted to use that money to buy a watch for me. HAHA! ;X NO LUH!! (internal joke. dont get it? nvm :)) anyway. great evening (:

supposedly should go the yishun's home on next monday. but due to the cleaning up on TIC room and the chalet, i can't go.

chalet from 8th - 10th.
12th going orientation for NP student ex- course. benjaminLOKE and lionel is going too :D
14th i've got trial on the REAL RUN (:
left with only 11th and 13th. think i'm working on the 11th and maybe 13th morning? :)

ii nidd to workk. cos. i lost US$200. but i promised to let it go~ so.. i must work hard to earn back the money:)

~~there's definitely reasons why i'm fine with letting you go.. anytime.~~

LAOS

2007-10-04T15:18:00.001+08:00

[EDITED]

BACK! back in SINGAPORE :)

don't have to ask me if i enjoyed and all sorts.. read my entry and you'll know everything :D if you find it long and you're lazy to read, then don't read. and.. don't ask. HAHA.

sorry for not msg-ing or reply anyone the day where i went LAOs and those days i'm in LAOs. HAHAs. was rather busy with packing :X

plane delayed due to the rain:( the time there is 1hr slower than singapore and everything there is slow:P even how the animals walked :D HAHAs! our plane alighted us at Udon Thani (Thailand) airport. checked out. the situation in Udon Thani is abit like malaysia. and days i spent there, i've been missing malaysia so much :( anyway, went to our hotel, LVcity in LAOs :) moved everything and went out to eat at Fatimahs' restaurant :) HAHAHA. pepper, chilli and salt seems to be EXTREMELY cheap there! and i believe the people there LOVE vegetables :D hahaha! accommodation was good :) EXCEPT for the mosquitoes! i've got LOTS of mosquito bites and i hope it won't leave behind any scar. Went to the primary school after lunch to understand their situation better. and.. WOAH. there's actually COWs, GOATs, DOGs and CAT in the school :D discussed how actually we can help and the positioning of the lightings and fans. went to morning market to find some tools but most of the stalls were closed so didnt managed to buy anything. searched for BAGs and WATCHes! :( HAHAHAHs. it's ever so TEMPTING :( didnt have much of the shopping for clothes type of feeling. Went to Novotel for buffet dinner and miss quek gave us a quick review on eating etiquette. Finished the buffet and while the teachers are having their discussions, we, the students were having our own fun :X HAHA. girls are so LITTLE so.. things/rumours/scandals stuffs sure goes on de. HAHA! had don't know how many "wedding dinner" inside the 5-star hotel in LAOs. HAHA! but out of so many. 1 were REAL de luh! and that's Adrian and Wen Xin! LOLs. can't believe that she actually hides it from us for SO LONG. walked around Vientiane and walked back to the hotel :) i was hungry so went to grab a piece of prata with winson and it's so... so... so.... OMG!! YUMMY-LICIOUS!!! *slurps!! singapore or ite college east prata uncle should try huh. :P woooo *drools -

visted the Singapore's ambassador in LAOs(Vientiane). and mercedes benz there is like SO CHEAP can! :( OH OH OH! if only life was better in LAOs and if only NETBALL was introduced in LAOs :D went to this Singapore Training Centre where mr goh taught. the teachers in LAOs is there to study better english, better IT skills :) and that's really BASIC. that shows how slow their pace actually are. and went to have BEEF NOODLE SOUP without BEEF at mr goh's student's hse.. HAHA!! the people there LOVEs chilli. and their chilli padi is MUCH more spicy. ask those genie pigs =X went back to the primary school. and we couldnt do anything much as there was insufficient number of tools there. went to a place near morning market to buy which was abit of expensive and then back to the hotel. Went to the Mekong River to have steamboat. HAHA. first time steamboat inside only got vegetables and dong fen. HAHA! oh yea! had ice-cream again! their coconut ice-cream was like.. soooo WONDERFUL! ;D and another special thing, their cone is SALTish! :X then bought back BBQ PORK and PRATA for supper with jerric and winson. HAHA. the prata uncle was like SUPER HAPPY to see us. pyscho-ed mr chow to buy also. HAHAHAHAH!

waking up early for most of the days for breakfast and head to the primary school. did alot of mechanical and electrical engineering stuffs. and i've met a spiderman in LAOs. he's so cute. cos. he actually catches all the spiders in the room for me. i don't have the picture of him with me now but i'll post it when i sees the picture. ate swedish pizza and YESS!! their pizza are SO SO SO NICE, big and CHEAP! anyhow walked and walked to night market. LOL. it's all FOOD and not much shopping stuffs. took a tuk-tuk for my first time :D had prawns at Mekong River again. and their prawns was like SUPER BIG and still got EGGS de okay!! LOLS! *yummy! had my cuttlefish and i so LOVEd it! :D

been fixing the school for a few days and at night, went to MOON THE NIGHT and met a LAO guy, 20 this year. bounyang but he asked me to call him DAR. HAHA! so unique right? :P had a very great chat with him HAHAHAs and back to the hotel and was so tired that i slept :D

childrens' day spent in LAOs wasn't that bad. at least, my present to the children in the school was finishing the project:) and it's their smiles that was a gift in return for me and it's so worth to skip lunch for them :D we call ourselves SAIKANG WARRIOR. hahahahs! went to the waterfall and i fell! ahha! as Xing Ying said, you must fall in the water and that's why it's called water fall. AND HELL. my injury was like the worst one luh! you can't imagine the image i saw and how shocked i was when i saw my skin "poking inwards" so painful but yet things went on. HAHA. up to the bus to the soccer field. HAHA. a draw 04-04 :D bounyang played for our team too :) back to the hotel and went to this restaurant to have our dinner and saw Sayauh wrking there. he gave us 20% discount and also treated us Ice Cream and can you imagine, it's only his first day of work! went back to the hotel and i forgot what happened cos, i didnt finish my journal! HAHAs!

the water fall :D

it's Bernards' birthday. 生日快乐！and it was a free day for us. in the sense whereby we don't have to go to the primary school. went to alot of shan jiang but most of the shops were closed! so.. i was hungry :X and winson bought me this :) there's actually wang zai milk too but i threw it away straight after drinking:X

went to ITECC and it's so airport on the outside. isn't it?!

and then..

pizza again for dinner and lots of preparation done for the closing ceremony.

closing ceremony was WONDERFUL! and i've got alot of blessings. THANKs.

one string, one blessing :) didnt cry. won't cry :) but i enjoyed and loved the kids :D

ITECC again after ceremony. went to bowl. and i still sucks at bowling and ii wanna train it up! :( blahhs. other than that, i forgot le.. cos.. i didnt complete again.

[EDIT/EDIT]

i rmbred ler. went back to hotel and free time. bathed for VERY long and then to KHOP CHAI DEU for dinner :D nice atmosphere and thanks winson for his treat :D went to walk ard and realised that there's actually a shorter way! planning of going back for a short stay :) HAHA. we're really like over there for "honeymoon" LOLS! anyway. YEAHH.

HAHA. slept rather early and woke up at 3.50++am! WINSON pressed away my alarm! hahas! actually bu shi luh. i didnt heard it. neither did any of my room-mates heard it :X hahas! prepared and UP THE BUS. slept all the way.. in the bus, in the plane.. till i reached singapore :) can't blame. i've a good shoulder to lie on! :D and.. YEAPP. safe in singapore! YEAPP. ii know ALOT of you ppl missed me but worry not! i missed all of you too :D

THANKS :)

it's just life :D

^^v中秋节快乐

2007-09-25T13:19:00.001+08:00

BON VOYAGE WINSON LUA:D

my butch brand freak goody is oversea already but he's so gonna either have fun or suffer over there before all of us get there. early in the morning complained for bad services from budget terminal. HAHA. brand freak. can't blame him :X let's hope i'll feel different this thurs :)

had my hair cut, still same luh. auntie say i look better like this. HAHAHAHAS:P going laos so cut a lil shorter cos' mr goh mentioned that it was scorching hot over there. not going back school today as there's some BBQ thingy on. then OH YEA...

HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL! :D

going out for dinner with chester , brendan and his gf! =.="x HOW WEIRD. anyway, just see the situation tmr. if anything happen, i'll just go home :P yesyes. nothing much, i've to go and bathe now. or else, that DEcRUz brandon jiu no one help him lerhh! :X

ciaos! :) cares.

woooolaaaalaaaa

2007-09-23T10:26:00.001+08:00

WOAH! :D at least someone is there to think for his friends :) HAHAHAHAS! so, well... see how it goes larhs! :D

GAME OVER?!?!?! (:

wooooooo~ GPA 4 please don't run away from me :) HAHA! i did something which seems VERY impatient and also VERY ermmm. maybe... not realistic? :D and if nothing goes wrong, Winson also got GPA 4 worr!! HAHAHAHAS! and as what he said, he's gonna treat me for a reason: " you nag at me about the table" =.="x HAHAHAs.. things goes like this..

Anqi : "Pin come down stator losss and Pi then Pcr and Pm then lastly Ploss and Pout"

i don't know i said that sentence for how many times but i think it's quite alot.. COS he said that when i was reading this to myself, i also affected him to listen to what i was mumbling in my mouth :X cos' that was the most important table for 3-phase induction motor and also minus the stator loss and Pi, it's the DC machines le :D

and TAR-DAR, GPA 4 for Winson Lua Zun Haow. HAHAHAHHAS! congrats BUTCH! (: NEWYORK NEWYORK :D i'll be there when i come back from LAOs!! xD oh yes! i'll be blogging all these cos, i'm going LAOs this coming thursday alrdy!!! people, dont miss me too muchh worr :D HAHAHAs. andandand, i feel like playing NETBALL! :(

and and and, wooooolaaaaalaaaaa~ We're playing basketball in LAOs. HAHAHAs! and and and, CEnetballers :), lollipopz and the threesome :D , please meet up soon after i come back from LAOs :P
BUT BUT BUT. i've to .... do my project!!! nidda rush a lil or else, it'll affect my EOY result darn badly! and i don't want it to happen :/ STILL STILL STILL, i'll find time out for you guys :) cos' i miss you people BADLY! :( :(

WOOOOooooOOOoooOOOoo~~~~ so SENTIMENTAL! :X HAHAHAAs i've been so guai lan and i'm so happy now cos' mummy and daddy would be back today!!
:D imissthemBADLY! <3

mum said, er gu left us and we shouldnt be too sad cos' at least, we know, she don't want to suffer from the pain from the needles anymore.....

GOODmorning WORLD:)

beHAPPY ! (:

i'll think of you when i looked up to the sky and i'll surely miss malaysia (:

idiots.

2007-09-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

things are getting interesting. well, well, well, i shall reply to tags here then :)
incase another 100 tags come in and ppl can't see my reply :]

firstly, HI "plsDONcareHUiAM" :D WELCOME TO MY BLOG :)
answer to your "1st" i didn't say "cbox" was mine. but this tagboard it's with my code, and that's mine :)
"2nd" woah woah woah! don't put words into my mouth. ii didnt mentioned that i treat winson as a "vending machine". and WOW! you pay your friends when you tried to show your emotions freely?! Wahahaha! i pity your friends huh?! are they your friends or are they really those "vending machine" you mentioned? :D and. what makes you thinks that i don't treat him with respect? :)
"3rd", if you've read the entry about why i and winson can get so close, (supposedly yes, or else you won't be here?) den you should have read "iLOVEDhim" and if your english didn't fail you, you should know what's past tense? :D and and and, mind your words, i didnt make him wait (:
and and and, "4th" that wasn't your "last" tag, so you didnt just took up 6 spaces from my tagboard :D

so? :D

and, for your "btw" , i didnt make anyone wait. if you had no clues about some stuffs, it's better for you to either, find out the truth or even, shut up before you speak :)
AND, "Don accuse ppl when u don have evidence. police olso don do tat." HAHAHA! is that sentence for yourself? DONT accuse me of making anyone wait if you dont have any evidence. if you do, show it. that's what police do :D
and and and, did anyone said that they wanna "kick" you "out of" my blog? :D

AND, you claimed that you "care" for your friend. if you really do, have you asked them about their full opinion on this? and and and, you said you're "not interested" about whose relationship this is about, then, why tag in the first place? :) and and and, none of my friends said that they are "helping" us or whatever. so, don't "accuse". you nidd "evidence" you know.. HAHAHAHAHS!

oh oh oh. then there's one thing i wanna "ask" you. if you know both winson and jing kai. HAVE YOU SPOKE TO THEM about how they actually feel and about the whole matter? oh oh oh. you said, if i don't understand, i can "ask" like how your "english teacher" have told you :) and if you "support world peace" whahahahas! tell me, which of the things you'd tagged in my tagboard shows us that? :) and, who said that "clever" people dont "make mistake"???? HAHA!!

and, my friends have the right to tag what they like. and if you really "care about" your "friend". talk to your friend. he aint feeling happy with you guys doing all these. if whatever you've done, you need someone to clear your problem, then what are you? think about your "friend" luhh. if you really treat them as one :D

and to "Suzaku" if you said "cos replying to pple who tag short,childish nonesense is just waste of time,"/"it doesnt worth our time to even read it..=]" and, i don't care you are "coming back" but, aren't you contradicting yourself?! :D

today, is the last day of er gu's funeral...

fucker

2007-09-21T20:20:00.001+08:00

i don't know which idiot actually did thAt and said sorry.
if you're doing this for my own good, for goodness sake, you're SO WRONG.
do you think hiding the facts would actually make me happy?
if you're doing this for fun, KID, you've got a wrong place!
AND. so what if you've reached 100 msg and erased the previous one?!
it's not as though i've got no friends who read my blog luh?! DUMB!

YOU KNOW WHAT?
if you're so unhappy about who i am,
tell your friend that i'm a greedy person. tell him dont bother to wait!
if you're so smart, you won't even have to tag at my blog?!

and.
i don't have to buy a soft toy to do whatever i can.
DONT I HAVE FRIENDS WHO WOULD BE THERE FOR ME?!
will i be like you? SO PATHETIC?! (if you don't have)
if you have, than, friends are there for you to treat it as a vase?
or do you want your friends to keep you like a vase?!
ASS! actually i said that i didnt wanna bother about all these.
BUT SADLY, my anger management and my mood isn't that good.
SO. fucker, what can you do even if you think i'm such a person?!

and. so what if my friends wanted to keep this from me.
do you think, your unhappiness wouldnt reveal?

er gu zhou le..

2007-09-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

thank you everyone for your concern about this matter. don't worry. the she* i mentioned is my second aunt, and. yah, she's a malaysian. and yah.. i think i'm fine :)

就这样走了吗？

没说什么而离开。。

对不起。。

我不是不想回去见你最后一面，

我是真地走不开。。

对不起。。

我真的为了这件事挣扎了很久。。

也因为这件事而跟爸，妈，

吵了很久。。

一个一个这样离去。。

我下次还有理由会马六甲吗？

因为有你，

什么拜神的“必需品” 都无却一。

也因为你，ah on 叔叔都有人去拜祭。。

也因为你，智俐表姐才诞生。。

也就因为她的诞生。。

我才会更她那么好。。

你离去的时候倒低是带着笑容还是哭泣呢？

你应该会有点失望吧？

我看见了ah on 叔叔的葬礼。

我看见，

婆婆带着笑容离我们而去。

我看见，

公公最后从医院回来的样子。

我却。。看不见你怎么离我们而去。。

对不起。。

我只希望，你选这里我们的原因会使你好过点。

我也不想看见你受针孔的刺痛。

不想看见你吃药吃到吐的痛苦。

是你决定离开的吗?

你是开心地离开吗？

以前一直问我们是否少了

公公，婆婆，

会少回马六甲。。

但是，现在谁来问我，

是否。。

也少了你。。

还会回马吗？

我的答案也渐渐的清楚了。。

我。。。真地会想念你。。

请你，如果看到公公，婆婆，劝他们去投胎。

如果不要的话，就好请你好好的照顾他们了。。

我会想念你们的。。我会的。。

那片天空就是让我想念你们和马六甲的。。

你们的面孔，都不会被遗忘。。

对不起。。

er gu..

2007-09-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

~~she* passed away~~

NINJA!

2007-09-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

GREAT DAY!

winson passed! LOLS! soon when he gains his trust from his daddy, i'm so gonna ask him to be my driver :D mum asked me "even if he gets his license, you dare to sit in his car mehhs?" LOLS! i was laughing my ass off =X but! haha! shuld be can luh horr? 8 points nia lehhs! :X okayy! so.. supposedly, i had to treat him, and he actually gave excuses to treat me at Ninja! :):) -wide smiles* had claypot rice with french fries, shake (salmon) maki and iced latte! and winson had Laksa! and it looks VERY spicy and of cos, it tasted spicy as well! HAHAHAHAs! i'm so glad that i don't dare to eat spicy food that i didnt even dare to order that! :X the price of the food there isn't that expensive ehhs. both of us ate SO FULL and it's only 30++buckks! :D so.. went window shopping and HAHA tt brand freako (winson) actually kept tempting me to buy the m2 mmc and the pink earpiece! and i actually had the shopping for clothes type of feeling and that brand freak again, kept tempting me! and i saw this watch, with star signs of horoscope. it was... BEAUTIFUL and i'm so loving it! but still, i didnt buy because it's with black stripe. if only, the stripe was white and i'm so gonna buy! HAHA! and winson tempt me by saying that i can always change the stripe! =.="x! and and and!

SAMANIAH! rmbr me saying, if adidas watch got pink i sure buy?! OMG! you know, the pink is OUT! but it's not transparent but, it's NICE! the green one also nice! HAha! i'm so gonna see if LAOs have any! :X and and and, SAMANIAH! i thought of you today.!! guess where were i?! =X those stalls in suntec city. HAHAHAHA! it was a stall selling stainless steel ring!!! HAHA and it's only 12-15 bucks!! YOU CAN AFFORD IT LUH!! :D hahaha! it's ALOT cheaper than SK, New Generation and Couple Lab! :D hahahahas!

and went to this thai restaurant to find Michael! :) iMissHIM! (: he looks good! and that's very good! ^^v okayy! everywhere was having sales and that brand freak actually kept tempting me with the "SALES" word! oh yea! of cos, again, he tempt me to Ben n Jerry again to have the Mix and Match, LARGE! =.= and went off to carrefour to buy some sweets for brother and then, headed home. i think just suntec city, city link and marina square, me and the brand freak can spend the whole evening there! LOLs! our next stop will be at NEW YORK NEW YORK but that would probably be after we come back from LAOs! oh yea! went to yixing's shop to say hi and ~~left~~ ;D kinda miss those crazee times with her especially during Literature lessons! :) the others shuld be said by the pictures :)

YEAPS! i've got my K810i and it's good! :D

why winson and i can get so close?

2007-09-17T00:30:00.000+08:00

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

A DAY OUT TO BE CHILDISH AND SHAMELESS :):) (maybe not for them :P)
ESCAPE Theme Park on a saturday morning :D B'fast at BK :D waited for the rain to stop so at that meantime, we went to the ARCADE! :) then, pearllyn and i kept asking "when is the rain gonna stop?!" and HAHA! the very next moment we walked out, the rain stopped =D so, went to ESCAPE as planned :) bought the tix and HAHA, within the next 3 month, we'll return back!! :D shan't tell anyone why! :D only winson, pearllyn, jingkai and i shall know ^^ and played almost everything except those tt is spoiled! AND! when i said almost everything i meant.. ALMOST EVERYTHING!and DAMN! the guy working there saw it and kept suan-ing me whenever he sees me! yesyes! even the toot-toot train, the aeroplane, we all played! :X and, without fail, i fell down!!! cos the floor was slippery can! SHUCKS! :( and! i've got a cut on my ankle! :( rahrahrahh! pearllyn and i was "1..2..3... AHHHHHHH *screams*" HAHAHAHAHA! even when we're seating the.. i dunno what.. winson said we were too quiet and HAHA! we went screaming :X and the other grp who was initially noisy went quiet :X HAHAHAHAas! okay! the guys (winson and jingkai) SUPER NO USE can! =.="x they don't dare play INVERTER can!!! =.="x hahas!! BUT, pearllyn and i still went for the INVERTER without them! :P went to eat at food court and back to the ESCAPE again! go-kart was the most no. of times we played! :X wanted to rent bike but it was closing so.. forget it.. went in the ESCAPE and then till 8+pm and we headed home alrdy! :D WONDERFUL DAY! :))

worked today. nothing much :) oh yah! did i not mention, my Nokia 6280 died 2 days ago and i'm getting Sony Ericsson K810i tomorrow :D:D and and and, going out with my dearest winson tomorrow. whether he got his license tomorrow or not decides if it's he treats me or i treats him worrr! though the previous time, he still treats me :X but we're going NINJA tomorrow! :P and later on, we're gonna shop2 :D and HE BETTER DUN TEMPT ME TO BUY ANYTHING!

"why me and winson can get so close?"
; cos, iLOVEDhim! i really did! he was really sweet that he didnt even complained tt i dint spend enuff time with him when i was busy working that time. and, he SUPER dotes on me! he gave me surprises like nobody's business. he gave me the most heartwarmthing hugs. he gave in to me for ALMOST everything. and! whenever we argues, i'm, always the winner, though i knows that it's him who won :X how painful he felt, he still lets me vent my anger on him. eg: i bites him, i pinch him, i punch him! but most of the time, it'll be bite! unless i've got ulcer :x he sayangs me whenever i'm really down and when i'm sleepy. he listens to me complaining. he sayang-ed me to bed before. he listened to me talk when i'm asleep too! :) till now, some of it, he still does okay! and.. i changed alot after brking up with him luh! like became so vulgar, so violent to him and i hell dunno why! LOLs. but, now, i'm feeling so dependant on him. seriously, i think it's bad! but, as i said, once brk, there's no more return. if our love were that strong, we wont brk alrdy :)

; how is it now that i can tell you?

tagged

2007-09-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

Answer the following questions:
; 1. The person who tagged you was?- Adeline Li
; 2. Your relationship with him/her is?- She's my XIAOtou! :)
; 3. Your 5 impressions of him/her? - NOISY, FUN, FIERCE, GOOD DEFENDER, SMART.
; 4. Most memorable thing he/she has done for you?- She listens to me whenever i'm feeling down :D
; 5. Most memorable words she has said to you?- "ONLY, YOU CAN! HAHAHAHAHA!COZ U'R MY DATOU!HAPPY?SMILE!"
; 6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?- ermm. pei her more?
; 7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? - be less fierce :D
; 8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? - try to solve the matter?
; 9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?- ermmm. dunno!
; 10.The thing you desire to do most for him/her would be? - her defending skills.
; 11. Overall impression of him/her? - NOISY! but. caring :D

the others :D are the same! :D

QUIZ

2007-09-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

List your Top 5 Birthday Presents Which You Wish For:
* birthday cake
* red packets from PARENTS
* CyberShot; DSC-T100/ DSC-T20
* birthday cards
* Adidas Pink+White Jacket.

Answer the following questions:
; 1. The person who tagged you was?- JessicaCHANwanteng
; 2. Your relationship with him/her is?- Friends
; 3. Your 5 impressions of him/her? - Fun, Mad, Good friend, Short :X, quite Quiet.
; 4. Most memorable thing he/she has done for you?- She drew for me!
; 5. Most memorable words she has said to you?- "u can talk to me if u need a listening ear. =) call me okays. 81140545"
; 6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?- erhhhs! listen to her no matter literally or not.
; 7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? -ask her to speak up for herself more.
; 8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? - mm. HUA CHOU WEI AI! :D
; 9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?- dunno?
; 10.The thing you desire to do most for him/her would be? - Her skills on efficiency.
; 11. Overall impression of him/her? - VERY emotional.
; 12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?- Noisy? Emo? Irritating? K-po? Bitch? Slut? Impatient?
; 13. A character trait you love about yourself?- filial
; 14. A character trait you hate about yourself? - impatient
; 15. Person you want to be? - a better me.
; 16. Say something to the people who care for you!- i'll take care de.
; 17. Pass this quiz to 10 people to know what they feel about you.

1- Samaniah Bte Abdul Wahid
2- Adeline Li
3- Jessica Teo Sock Hua
4- Tan Soh Hwee
5- Cloudy Kuang
6- Imaniah
7- Joanne
8- Wong Jing Kai
9- Miss Nyoe
10- YiHui

; Who is #6 having a relationship with?- I think she's single.
; Is #9 a male or female?- Female
; #7 and #10 are together, will it be a good thing?- No! Cos' Joanne's Attached.
; How about #8 and #5?- Nope. Cos' they don't like each other :)
; What is #2 studying about?- Higher Nitec Certificate in Sports Management.
; When was the last time you talked to #3?- just now
; What kind of music does #8 like?- slow songs.
; Does #1 have any siblings?- YES!
; Will you woo #3?- Nope. She's my SHItou!
; How about #7?- Nope. She's attached!
; Is #4 single?- I don't know.
; What's #5's surname?- Kuang;
How about #10's?- Li?
; #4's hobby?- STALKING! :X
; Do #5 and #9 get along? - They don't know each other..
; Does #2 study ?- Sometimes!
; Have you tried developing feelings about #8?- Not the right time to develop feelings yet.
; Where does #9 live?- FAR FAR FAR!
; Are #5 and 1# best friends?? - NOPE!
; Does #7 like #2?- Well, I don't know.
; How did you get to know #2?- Netball!
; Does #1 have any pets?- NOPE!
; Is #7 the sexiest person in the world? -Nope for me :D

change.

2007-09-13T00:51:00.000+08:00

Is it the fact that "everything would change" and also, "good things would come to an end" and.. "nothing is forever"?

Rumors from MichelleTAN! =.="x that i like BrendanLim! it's like! Excuse me, first thing, he has a girlfriend! Okay! I admit, i said that "I'll definitely go for Brendan if he and his gf breaks!" before. BUT that was said because the way Brend's gf is treating him is.. like.. SHIT! and i can't stand it when sucha girl can actually can get sucha good bf like Brendan and also because, Brendan is a good bf. BUT! i don't think i'll really like Brendan if I really know him luh! I don't know luh~~ It's like SO CRAZY! *shouts! i so wanna kill MichelleTAN today! We headed to Hola after work for PRATAs. I was watching my TV when MichelleTAN was talking =X HAHA! but eventually i still listened to what she said okayy! Sometimes, we just need someone to complain to, after work :) It's okay! I'm always here! ^^

Lakes Cafe is changing and i mean change in the human resources, regardless in the kitchen or on the serving front.
Came to Lakes Cafe with the front server; Anthony, William, Jocelyn, Jimmy, Veronica, Joanne, Kelly, Pauline, Debbie, Doris, Seok Guat, Michael and Bernard. Kitchen's cook; Patrick, Ah Hang, Ah Por, Ah Hoe, Ah Seng..
Then, some changes...
Now, Seok Guat, Doris, Veronica, Patrick, Ah Hang left us first. Then, Joanne, Kelly, Jimmy, Michael and Ah Seng left. Anthony, William, Jocelyn and Ah Hoe leaving soon. Michelle, Awie they all too.. and! Lakes' would be left with nobody whom i care for anymore :(

did some serious thinking today.. if they leave for SICC and if william didnt ask us, the part-timers to join there, i'll ... just quit work. sound silly. BUT, seriously, how long have i worked there? It's VERY tiring and you wont feel VERY good serving some committee over there. Tolerance is a must over there or wherever you're working in service line. BUT, it was them whom gave me the strength, the will to carry on, the reason why i work regardless how tired or sick i am. It was all because of them and now, they're going off... one by one.. Lakes' will lose the smiles, the noise, EVERYTHING including it's spirit. How am i feeling? DOWN. VERY! Sometimes, i just hoped, i didn't get close with them and i won't be feeling this way now. *sigh.

"tell me i'm dreaming.."

BUT, i always choosed to believe there's forever especially when jiayi said that, "when death takes you, it takes the word Forever" i thought, this working friendship will last with me FOREVER. i thought.. but i don't know. I just hope, William, Jimmy they all would ask us, the part-timers over to join them as a team again in SICC. I really have no wish to seperate from them.. it'd already been 2 years.. i really can't put it down. I really.. can't :'( I'm afraid of myself crying.. cos' i've grown stronger both in physically and emotionally and if i really break down, i'm afraid... it'll be a serious and long one..

"You'll never know how ii feel"

Exams' OVER!! :D

2007-09-11T19:25:00.000+08:00

Yes! Yes! Yes! Exams' OVER! :D had been studying outside whenever we're free the past few days and just yesterday (Monday) we were all OVER-STRESSED out and samaniah initiate to play some games and HAHA. we got so WOOHOO over there :D it's actually kids' game but think, stress conquered us that time round and we won kinda LORTS prizes and we distributed in sort of equally and this is what i've got :P

HAHA! cute right?! :P it's 2 sticker book, 1 mini-torch and one mechanical pencil with winnie the pooh :)) headed home and WENT CRAZY! i can't sleep for like dunno how many days alrdy!!

EXAMS TODAY! :/ HAHA! but i finished it alrdy! as long as there's no careless, there shuldnt be any problem.*PRAY!! and to release some stress out from us.. we went to watch movie :D EVAN's ALMIGHTY! xD it's FUNNY! :P and we finished the show and walked down the escalator and dunno-who suggested to watch movie AGAIN! haha! so.. we went up, watched Hairspray! lols! so-wanna-dance feeling. and SAMANIAH DANCED! :X

after that, i've to head back to school alone after that cos' i've some project meeting from the student development centre. and HAHA! say i'm K-PO or what, i accepted the project :X so.. till december, i'll be busy AGAIN! :X oh yah. for next week, 17-23 sept, who wanna ask me out ask me NOW!! :D cos' i'm planning for my working schedule.

monday(17), thursday(20), friday(21) i'm booked alrdy. so.. HAHA.

SNATCH THE TIME SLOTS NOW! first come first serve basis.

and for some people, i've to consider if i wanna meet you larhs! HAHA! :D

there're MANY goals set by people for me and there's also goal which i wants it myself and it's to "Face Challenges", "Try something NEW" and "Do what you already know you can!"

881!

2007-09-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

so wanna blog :D cos am so HAPPY today! -wide smiles*

watched movie with my DEARESTs; MUM, DAD & BRO!

it been SO LONG since i last catch a movie with them AND i havent went out with them for like SO SO SO LONG can!! -wide smiles*

collected my members' card :D and it's so tiny *loves!

work today was like SO TIRING! -frown*
kinda busy? or issit because of the insufficient amount of sleep? -wonders*

anyway, thanks to adeline and ron for chatting with me last night -wide smiles*

thanks to their "feedback" and "suggestions"..

and winson! i sms-ed him. asked him not to sleep pei me sms..

i asked him to change me. to a better me and i told him what i wanna do.

and he dont wanna change me! which made me kinda pissed *zrahh!

but later on, he told me the reason why which was kinda sweet! HAHA! thanks butch! :D

and in the end, i'm like JK FLIP FLOP IC CHIP.. flip and flip and flip! and.. i seriously had no idea what time i actually slept. woke up SUPER AWAKE can. i wasn't even feeling sleepy at all! -screams*

knee super pain! ankle super pain! -yells*

went to meet my DEARESTs after that and watched 881 :D super nice, super funny, super touching :) and i like the songs :D

went to bedok to find 2nd uncle then eat dinner :)

mum saw my lerthagic face and asked daddy to cab home. WAHAHAHAH! :X

so headed home. bathed and HAHA! i'm here! i can't sleep again! =.=

going out to study again. ONE LAST SHOT before the exam!

these few days spoke alot with furby and it's so funny! make me think back kinda lorts and :D i'm happy! cos' it's all about when we're young and innocent back then :)

EXAMS! let you go.

2007-09-08T18:58:00.001+08:00

3 more days before Machinery's paper. i'm having this tensed up feeling and it's so shitty. stress given by individual but whatever issit, i'm so gonna study for today because i'm going for work tmr and zrahh! :( why some people out there just have the 'whole worlds' time' whereby i only have 'so lil` time' and i hate this!! i slept VERY late ytd and woke up at 3pm today! and i dont know what time to sleep tonight. cos' i'm working morning tmr. oh yes. went to adda's birthday celebration ytd :) thanks for inviting us :)

anyway! SAMANIAH BTE ABDUL WAHID BIN (ii forgot) HAHA! how's your date with KHAIRUL?! :D

oh yahs! EVERYONE who's having exams JIAYOU okayy!
and especially NZ0604P, my dearest - samaniah, yenn, vhiska and winson. JIAYOU okayy! together we shall get a GPA 4 for tt CTC to see okayy! :D

:) decided to let you find the freedom of yours now. i'll walk on with the plans that i'm given. no matter what i feel about this aint really important. what i wants to tell you is no matter how long my plans are gonna take me, how tiring i'm gonna get after this whole thing. if you still remember the way to my heart, if you still have the key to my heart, my lock there would never change. be happy that i'm actually willing to let you go. and this time round, i won't pull you back. i won't. cos' i wants you to find your own way, own way whereby your heart wants you to go. i don't wanna you to promise me that you will know the way to my heart. i don't wanna you to promise me anything. i just wants you to be happy and carefree. jiayou in your semester2 and takecare :)

exams coming

2007-09-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

almost the whole class treats this week as study week and most of us didnt attend lessons. so didnt i. =X met up with samaniah and winson today at tampines starbucks to study but it was super noisy that i can't get anything into my brain so decided to change place. to the airport! ;) mcdonalds' again. it was kinda noisy too! WAHAHA! and samaniah is like STARING to spaces luh. well.. at least some things went in. got chased by the manager. headed to COCO TREES. and then back home. told mum that i actually got chased away and she said i could actually complain! :D WAHAHAH! it's not that serious luh! x) actually yenn and victor should come but. zZz dont know luh. i wished to help. but.. tell me how.

6 more days to my major Machinery paper.
oh man. i'm.. .. .. .. not calm.
and! and pls do not "B" my IE. phase test pls be well! *pray*
Machinery. should be able to secure :)
Sports and Wellness and also Customer Service should be alright.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!
do not let anything affect my grades.
oh yeah. i've put Student's Seminar project to ISM le :)

lalala. i'm so afraid of seeing my result when i'm back from laos.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGKAI

2007-09-03T22:14:00.000+08:00

ii just did this just now. haha! it's very simple but just hope it'll hang it on there before i see you again luh :) ii owes you a present :P and ehhs. give me some time first before ii can give you okayy :D YEAPP! HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY! ii dont wanna be the first neither do ii wanna be the last. no idea why but that's what my heart told me so :) hope you actually enjoyed your birthday with your friends and ii think you did :D TAKE CARE and yeahh may your wish for this year come true <3s>

things have been changing. day and night, when the earth is rotating, something is changing. Jimmy and Michael both can no longer be found in Lakes' cafe nor Laguna anymore :(
the jimmy whom ii first know as a supervisor when i first entered lakes cafe. the one that taught me how to carry a tray with only one hand. the one whom take good care of me when i'm in vineyard. the one who protected me from getting bullied. the guy whom later was promoted as the asst. manager. the guy whom folded a frog for me when i'm down. he's a good guy. a good higher-ranked person. though with a lil bit of temper but he's always / most of the time cool with me. with him when i'm working, it's nvr bored but now, he has left T.T
the michael whom ii noe as a big trumpet at work. the man whom always praises me at work. the one whom walks away when there's trouble. the old man whom loves to gamble and also whom is also a good father of his children. a old man who always boast ardd and the old man whom is so naggy. now no one is there to nag at me, no one to joke ardd with and no old man to listen to :(

everything's changing. how i wish, time would stop.

delay of entry.

2007-08-31T23:34:00.000+08:00

:) back to blog. THANKS to samaniah, she almost revealed to winson that i've a blog okayy! not that i don't want him to know. i said, i just wanna see who really reads my blog. but even if he knows also nvm luh. cos' i've come clear with him le. even now, ppl still mistaken that we're together / still together. whatever issit, our hearts are clear that we're no longer for each other or at least, he knows how my heart feels towards him le :) :) :) we understand each other too well lerhh luh.

anyway, had been either too busy/too tired these few days and that's why i didnt managed to update my blog even though i asked xiaoyan to see my blog. okayy. actually what ii wanna let you ppl and xiaoyan know is... SHE DIDNT SEE ME IN CAFE ONE WHEN I WAS SITTING DOWN AND IT'S NOT JUST ONCE OR TWICE! IT'S FOUR TIMES!!! SHE WALKED PAST MY TABLE THRICE AND STOOD FACING MY DIRECTION ONCE! she kept sms-ing!!! and ii don't have her number. or else i'll call her and disturb her luh!! HAH! issit really you're too busy with your sms or it's just that your eyes are too small?! WAHAHAHAHHAHA! :X don't believe you can ask samaniah :X

yeayea. have been busy with the sales for the funds raising which was for the kids in laos :) really worn out after each day. leaving school only when sun has alrdy set. that's like.. zZz but, ANQI's STILL ALIVE! and yeahhs. find that those going for LAOS are all crazee and smart ppl :D this laos trip shuld be a very fun one though penang trip was the first oversea trip with school, which was also the best, but i think this laos trip should be good too :D sometimes i wonder, how do i control my temper with certain ppl but with some other certain ppl, i just can't control? lalalalala. but no matter what, i meant no harm.. really!

going laos in like 26 days. like.. WOAH! so fast! everything is just so fast.. the planning, the sales.. the bonding.. and in 2 more days, it's the start of the 4-NATIONS NETBALL and i doubt i'm free. zZz. and it's also jingkai's birthday and i'm having IE test on monday! :( and, have to go TIC to sort out goods. like. zZz. I'M SO BUSY! told winson today i'm so tired he bo chap me zZZz. brothers' N's also starting on the monday! and ZraHhs! please let him do well. i don't wish him to enter ITE. he'll be wasting his time! :(

no matter what happens, no matter what i do, i just wish to be happy~

gathering :D

2007-08-28T18:31:00.000+08:00

:) went out yesterday night :P

:) i'm a happy girl :D okayy! i still thinks that it was so wrong when the girls chose a day before my test to gather :P however, i was happy :D i missed all the laughters, all the gatherings, all the playings and all the brain working :)) it doesn't matter if it's just seating down chit-chatting, eating or whatsoever, it's just.. so wonderful. anyway, i got "cheated" by cloudy to head to whitesands to meet her but at least, ii know something new in return :P HAHA! maybe you don't understand what i'm saying but, haha! i'm HAPPY ^^ ii always LOVE gatherings! but i'm always full of activity which spoiled everything :(

so through this prank(gathering), i managed to meet up with GOODFRIEND(sohhwee), NEIGHBOURhoodFRIEND(cloudy), 10-yearsFRIEND(jiayi), hide-n-seekFRIEND(michelleTAN) and pentium1FRIEND(jocelyn^tong). my lovely girls ;D

what's more?! i saw NJR! and that's nigel jerad raju! i think i spelled correctly cos' he's the first person who got slapped by me real hard :X since graduation, i don't see him till now :) he always tolerates me like :P *bleahhs* haha!! so, i'm HAPPY :D and then 21-ed home :) crazee shots inside the bus :P HA! :D

okayy :D that's about it for yesterday:P for today, machinery section B test. CLOUDY you're lucky that i'm so not gonna fail this test okayy :D won't fail but results jiu bu zhi dao le :P and that B.I.T.C.H. no4 is SO DAMN IRRITATING! :X she ABANDONED ME for KHAIRUL! :X the guy from the other class and ahha. i don't know him well. ask.. SAMANIAH! :P she knows it ALL! and AHAH! take ex-lovers' PSP also don't wanna return :X WAHAHAHA! she's so gonna kill me tmr. HAHA! =P alright! Industrial Electronics Phase Test TOMORROW :( please be easy :/ cos' heard from the others that it's rather tough :( i just wanna get good grades. HMM. anyway. i think that's all about it luh~~ :) nothing much to update either :)

but still

adeline BEN xiatou :D xiexieni :)

ITE ROAD SHOW 2

2007-08-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

RATATOOEE WAS WONDERFUL :D watched a cartoon like.. after so long :P next show i wanna watch is Evan Almighty :) ^^v bloody helly COLD inside AMK HUB. i was wearing a jacket alrdy okayy! :( shift 4-10pm with andrew, benjamin, winson and mr raymond. saw jess n her bf, bev, april, swan, krys, xiaoyan, xiaoxuan, joseph and alot more =D

Mcdonalds-ed, 88-ed, and back home.
"i believe" which was sung by the ITE ppl, the lyrics were like.. WOAH!! if only the song is out :(

Let me share my schedule for the week.
monday: testing of solar panels.
tuesday: machine theory test Section B.
wednesday: industrial electronics phase test.
thursday: industrial electronics theory test chap 10-13.
friday: laos' meeting they said 2.30 to 5.30pm luh.. but.. who knows..
saturday: working morning (i think) then, dinner for the 7th month de..
sunday: working (don't know what shift yet)

woahh! it's like.. SO OCCUPIED!! :((
ii wanna go shopping! haha! :P
ii wanna buy zen stone plus.. =X
and! my camera's price dropped 20 bucks le! :X
:((((( zen stone plus is so.. haha!

ITE ROAD SHOW 1

2007-08-26T10:30:00.000+08:00

ytd road show was fine at the beginning until the device spoiled. zrahh! all have to use talking de. but we still passed it thru :) oh yes. samaniah and i took 24 down to AMK hub and that was a crazee ride can! :P and i lost all my energy when i just got there :X and COLD! damnn! outside was like SCORCHING HOT but inside? FREEZING COLD. i was shivering even after i ate my burger. BLAHHH! 88-ed home with the durian pancake. WAHAHA ;D and i fell asleep straight away after my bath. and, SAMANIAH! i nvr on my lappy! :P not at all.

going to AMK HUB soon. wahaha! nort for FULL-SHIFT but to watch RATATOOEE! :P like.. finally!!!! hehe! and then, shift till 10pm. and i'm so gonna bring my jacket today! :D

"i'm a big big girl.. in a big big world.."

i'm no fairy, i'm no angel, i don't read minds.. i said all that cos, i knew you too well.. but that was then.. the person whom i know was back then.. and i totally hate it when i know what you're gonna do next. for whom you're now, i aint sure. cos' i've not met you for real long and.. even if i met you, i won't know how to get rid of the awkward-ness. maybe you won't feel it but.. i don't know. don't ask me to read your mind, cos, i really cant. and.. there's too much thing that i don't wish to assume.

"i can see the first leaf falling.."

what to blog?

2007-08-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

YES YES! do come down! :D the quantity and material quality aint bad :)
seeing it won't harm and the price range is MORE AFFORDABLE than ever!
feel free to come down. we'll be there to serve you :) even if you're not from ITE you can actually also come on that day :D yesyes. ppl, if you're free, please do help me pass on to your friends about this too. ALL THE MONEY would be given to the ppl in LAOs. so do lend a helping hand :P

what else to blog? what else to blog? what else to blog?
somehow, when you said, you're giving me an answer after my test and exams. i don't know why, but, my heart is telling me, it'll be better if exams will never come. since then, my heart beats faster than ever =/ this feeling aint good.

khoi huk chao.

chao huk khoi boh?

saw euu* after so long.

2007-08-23T22:50:00.001+08:00

saw your* appearance after so long, the feeling's awkward. i don't know how to start a conversation with you*
nothing was in my mind but yet, i can't seems to find a right sentence to talk to you*

wanted to blog about kinda lorts of things actually, but i forgot everything already except that, MEI-LIN said this when she saw me in cafe1 for the second time. "You from just now eat until now ar?" it's like NO LUH! and samaniah that B.I.T.C.H. was laughing her lungs off! hmpFf! :( blahhs. why isn't my english good? :( had been thinking about this for a few days. zraHhs. haven't slept since yesterday and shits. i'm feelin giddy and sleepy and so unwell since i reached home. oh gawd.

anyway. CARELESS MISTAKE IN MY TEST! fcuk! :*( tmr, will longer be staying over in school but going home real late. starbucks-ed like finally after so long :P studied. and yes! i did studied okayy! :) tired tired tired! when i say three times, meaning i really mean it.

shit. i think i can't take it anymore. ciaos.

to him* again*

2007-08-22T16:13:00.000+08:00

from jessicaCHAN's blog again :)

Taurus Woman - April 21st to May 21st
A slim moderately tall woman. Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person. Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line. She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her. She is a patient person, but always need new excitement. She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before. She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there. She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit. Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life. She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance ,then you are dating the wrong girl. You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home. She loves animals and likes to surround by animals. Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul. She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection. She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women. She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom. Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a public figure but belongs to no one.She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her. Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom. She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds. She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life. She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days , she will miss you more. Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up". She always remember her first love.Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for "Happiness". She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge. She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough. She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars. She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else. She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up. If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.

samaniah wants me to post this cos she said this look UGLIER and obvious.=.=" okayy the blue black got worst. zZzz

anyway. yeahs. your friends may be right. it may not be "worth for you?"

after so long, we're just like those passerbys..
like those whom always took the same transport
and those whom just sit beside you..
so closely... yet,
sometimes having the same destination and
sometimes, alighting at different places.
now, you're just like those whom is sitting the inner seat and
i'm the one sitting beside you and wondering if..
i can sleep? where is this person alighting?
and maybe you're also wondering when am i alighting
so that you'll feel more comfortable when you sleep or alighting..
what do you prefer?
me alighting first, you alighting first or both of us alighting in the same stop.

to him* again

2007-08-21T19:49:00.000+08:00

TESTs ARE MAKING ME GO CRAZY!
today's test is DRIVING ME INSANE!! :(
except for 1 qns which i don't know. there's one qns which i studied but yet i can't remember! ahh! i'm so not gonna think about other things the next time.
TEST TEST TEST!
this coming weeks is FULL OF TEST!
there's PQ test this thurs,
there's IE IC chip theory test next week,
there's IE phase test next week,
machinery theory test (section B) next wednesday.

and then, i'll have my major exam in the following week alrdy!
OMG! everything's like ARHHHH!!!!
and and and.
will be out to give a farewell party for jimmy tmr :(
this friday i can't go home. have to stay in school. for further detail, you can ask me or you can wait for my entry.
this saturday and sunday there's also ITE road show in AMK hub and i've to be involved luh. i'm so so so busy!

oh yes! next wednesday, 29th August 2007, ITE will be opening a stall.
venue and time is not confirmed yet. will update you ppl again. but for whoever is free on that day, please to come down to our stall to take a look. it's all new and fashionable and selling at a very cheap price(compared to the original price of it). ALL THE MONEY IS GOING TO GIVE THE KIDS IN LAOS. so do give a helping hand and i believe, after buying the things, you're helping yourself too. becos the clothings are nice.. and i mean it :D don't forget to bring some money along too people. if you really don't have cash, there's always a POSB machine for you to withdraw :D THANKS!

haha! yesyes! i'm going overseas again. and again, it's with the school :) i'm going LAOS for a social entreupreuneurship project during my holiday:) wahaha! and i'm not going genting anymore. alot of reasons and excuses behind this but nvm. should be planning to go sentosa and spend some money :X shuld be luh. or even, escape. WAHAH! so long nvr go there le! me and samaniah are planning alrdy. will be noticed again. cos' everyone's busy now. pearllyn's having exam or alrdy hols le. then, jingkai.. i don't know. samaniah, preparing herself to go yunan. winson and i are preparing to go LAOS with CTC!

oh yes! our project is still abit of procrastinating but, at least we've tested the lighting and etc. finds that some teachers out there just can't be bothered but we as the students have to do our part. and victor toh chen long that zhuwei seriously i feel like killing him! but. suan le.. he should noe what he is doing.

and for my student seminar's project, heard that it will be carried out. so :) i'll be busy too!
i feel like shouting so much! i feel like screaming so much! i feel like crying so much!
but i can't, cos' i've to learn what's stress. what's overcoming the fears and problems. what's... facing the consequences. i had learnt not to regret and i will not regret. ANQI JIAYOU! cos i believe, what you're doing now is worth it. JIAYOU! :)

~~don't worry. i'm not rushing you for an answer. if you rush and you didn't make the right choice, i rather you don't choose.~~
please, for your own sake, take your time. search for the answer you have, not the answer you want it to be.
去你内心里面寻找你真正需要的答案吧。

i don't wish things to be so complicating.

knee!

2007-08-21T01:27:00.000+08:00

zrahH! remember me telling euu my injuries on my knee after my camp?!
it's SO UGLY! :((((( and.. it's very painful..

to him*

2007-08-20T18:56:00.000+08:00

choices i gave was simple.
1. lead a new life without me.
2. lead a new life including me in your life.
3. go back to the past.

your friends, all wants you to be happier and thinks that you, leading a new life without me would be better for you and you mentioned that you wants people around you to be happy and also, leading a new life without me will not cause a whole load of your pals to be sad/unhappy or maybe, even angry and that wont increase your unhappiness. cos you said, when they are happy, you'll be happy. so why let yourself suffer and think for so long? maybe, they're right. "plan a rox", "forget her" and also "look for new love." and.. "dump her." yeahh. maybe :) and also, maybe yahhs. maybe.. i will be the person that will get over it very easily.

you wants to listen to my opinion?
i dont want to go back to the past. going back to the past meaning, we're back to the same starting track and what's the point? we'll all be tired.
i aint a good person/girl whom you worth waiting or to love. if i do, i won't be the person who makes you unhappy and also, i wont be the person whom makes you cry.

whatever issit, i just hope, you will make a choice that you know you'll be happy for and also, answer which your heart tells you. think for yourself.

~~if you wants to leave me, please leave me earlier. cos' i'm afraid of becoming someone whom i don't wish to be in the end. treat it as, i'm begging you.~~

OAC CAMP TRIP!

2007-08-19T14:37:00.000+08:00

i'm back.. back again :) had the greatest fun through my entire camp life ^^ just incase people out there wondering, "What camp?", "I thought all the camp are the same?" wahaha!

i shall answer the simpler answer first. what camp. it's OAC camp. again, ppl ask me, "you in OAC mehhs?" nope. i'm nort. but who says you needs to be a OAC person before you can join their camp? AND! yes, i'm just trying to enjoy my every weekends:) oh yea~ K-PO luh me! haha! :D

"I thought all the camp are the same?" NONONO~~ you're SOSOSO wrong! :P firstly, which camp do you always see the same ppl and teachers? :D so. point no1 settled :D point no.2 i've to cook for both myself and my grp mates and also, i learnt how to use the gas and mess tin :D point no.3 is for those find it common. pls scroll up to the first line i typed (: do you get it? okokay, it's either you're too lazy to scroll up or you just plainly dont see that well.. i said, ".. my entire camp life." and if you still can't get it, let me tell you then.. i meant, it's MINE. so it's DIFFERENT for me. say i'm dumb, i'm slow or whatever but at least, i've again done something new :) have you? :P

wahahahas! what else what else? oh yeshhA! after answering those simple qns, i'm so gonna talk about the camp! :D 3D2N in sch :) YESHH! YESHH! in school for camp! :) no lexury. not at all. Physical Training (PT) for every morning at 6am!! 5BX which also includes running.. was abit of disaster luh.. cos i havent been running for quite some time since netball ended. AND! nt that bad ehhs. only that i felt like sleeping esp after the runnings. =X maggie mee.. can food.. tell me, what is luxury and LALAlALA~ solo walk ard school.. isn't fun. cos. the stairs were all so dark. no light. nothing. zZz. and sleeping at 2am everyday. woahh!! at first, i thought "OH MAN! it's gonna be BAD!" but amazing race really... makes me love KARRA (my grp's name) :D all ran! and their perserverance, their active-ness, their cheers and support even though they are very tired. everything was so good. and i've walked from simei to tampines, to bedok central and to simei ite. although we were the last to leave the domb but we were the first! :) skits preparations, skit and everything was WONDERFUL. we've got the best group award too :P YEAHH!

"EVERYONE GIVE KARRA A HELL YEAAHHH~"
"HELL YEAHHH~!"

first time, i really really really enjoyed the camp :D but i've got aches luh~~ :(( blahblahblah. and PT today morning was led by the ex-co-member from OAC and then when i didnt concentrate, i twisted my ankle and SHUCKS! my knee got scratches alrdy! :(((
yeapps! pictures would be uploaded when i get it ^^
I am the KARRA
You are the KARRA
WE ARE~ KARRA! :D

OH YEAS~! 5-Nations Netball Cup is HHHEREEEE!!! :D i want to watch! i want to watch! i want to watch! :PP okayy. ignore my maddness. i've to be like this. to keep myself from thinking too much and also, i dont wish to seems impatient for the answer. ^^v

BUSY BUSY BUSY! cum on~ i'll take it ALL ! :))

i went out with her*

2007-08-17T01:32:00.000+08:00

school-ed, sp-ed, hougang-ed, town-ed, home-d, bag pack-ed, assignment done. x)
lessons; project; lunch cum dinner; being a companion; alone (:

first time walking to town alone. WAHA! that's so strange but luckily i don't have to be alone heading home except when i took 21 back (: shopped with someone whom i havent seen for ages but i'm not the one who shopped :) anyway, saw my lovely kenneth and he's so "uncle" now! :P but his girlfriend was damn fierce =.=

won't be home for the next 2 nights (: will be back on sunday noon/evening i guess. so i won't be online the next 2 or 3 days ^^ and that's good i guess :D

tomorrow is gonna be a VERY busy day for me :( anyway that doesnt matter. at least, i'll knocked out by 12am :D

what will your answer be? (: think for yourself

我不想在为你而哭了

2007-08-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

过了那么久，一旦我们有状况时，你依然一样。。
觉得，跟很多女生接触会让你好过些。
如果你没这样的想法，那就当作是我的错觉吧。
可是，你所做的一切都告诉我，你只是需要女人的陪伴，
而不是我。
或者你觉得你需要我。。
可能是因为，你太习惯我在你身旁了。
或者，认为你在我身边，你会比较好受？
告诉我，你到底想要怎样？
我已经无力再在乎你了。
我已决定，不再因为你而难过了。
我知道，我不是依赖你。
可是，你呢？你是否能给我一个答案？
不是我想要的答案。。
是你心里的答案。。
不要在欺骗自己了。。。。

依赖跟恋爱有什么不同
如果，过去一切的一切都是我的幻觉，
那过去也未免太真实了吧？

right here waiting for you.

2007-08-13T23:19:00.001+08:00

i was silly enough the past few days. now everything should come to an end :) "you've" almost "got me going crazy!" but. "you're next to never." nvm. my life. has just started. oh yes. it's my choice of being who i am and what i become. that's the purpose of this url :) more exciting life is out there! ALL OUT!

and i realise. i aint a good sister luh. hmms.

"how my heart breaks.."

drawings!

2007-08-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

was chatting with jessicaCHAN when her msn got problem and we started drawing and i drew my turtle as usual :)

and she said that i'm the turtle and i told her, except for the eye (BIG EYES), i don't resume the turtle! :D and she wanna help xiaoyan (JASMINE) and she said monkey then and she drew this

and i told her that look like a lion and she drew this to show the differences..

but again, i told her, the first one is lion with hair shaved! :D whahahah!

and when she changed to her desktop, she can't draw and i started drawing and.. i drew this and i hell dont know how to draw nicely.. will learn.. ^^

so, who wanna teach me how to draw?

old cartoons, old songs, makes me feel happy! :)

i'm a happy girl again! Thanks!

2007-08-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

new songs in my blog (: just two songs. HAHA! cos' alot of people complained that "Love Is Colourblind" is too noisy and i didnt have any boyfriend not of my races so.. that song don't suits me. HAHA! finding songs that suit me? maybe these 2? LOLS! haha! just have a pleasant and soothing feeling for these 2 songs. ^^

mum's sick. dad's sick too. they're both having flu and kept sneezing away. i think i passed the germs to them.. SHITS. still having slight fever and headaches. think tomorrow would be feeling better bahhs. and seriously, i don't like the song 明天会更好 cos it's all a lie :( anyway. i don't care what i'm gonna meet tmr but i'm gonna face it all. AND. how my life is, how i'm facing my life have ~~NOTHING~~ to do with YOU. so.. you need not bother! stop asking me why, stop trying to be funny. so you think all these i've been doing is just a joke?! you don't give a shit right? just laugh it off all you want. YOUR LIFE is YOURS! MINE LIFE IS MINE! and seriously, if you just wanna know why, just tell yourself this, cos, ANQI IS VERY UNREASONABLE!

i wished upon the stars just like a lil girl whom wishes to see aladdin.

blahhs.

2007-08-10T19:19:00.000+08:00

National day is over :) Streetz Netball is over too :) :) saw alot of people in suntec ^^ people whom i have not seen for quite some time :) :) :) blahhs! after not sleeping well for one whole night, i'm sick :( :( had interview for Laos trip today and SHITS! i've got tongue tied!!! but don't know lahh. can go means can go :) ANQI, all the best! :D oh yes! went to beach road to find the price for the Genting trip in september :) and my throat is so painful now :)

i'm having the worst part of life now! maybe, i shouldn't had crave for August that much earlier on cos' it aint that good and it's so dissapointing.

start of cold war.

2007-08-07T23:32:00.001+08:00

i am announcing a cold war between .:. You & I .:.

i'm serious. kick me out from your world if you can't tolerate all these.

i'm getting stupid nowadays.

i believe in fairytales.

i believe in miracles.

i believe in shows.

i believed that it might happen to me one fine day but it turn out..

it's a nono!

had a slight fever this morning. almost fainted. i just felt so weak and i forgot to bring machinery book for a 2-hr lecture can! *kill me* didnt sleep well last night and this whole morning, my mind was filled with something else. anyway (: i felt better during the presentation rehearsal. ^^ and i'm kinda interested in AVA ler :D the lightings, the screen, i'm alrdy learning and applying the skills tmr :D trng today. had fun in Mcdonalds'. you all can view adeline's blog for more info luh. i'm not in the very mood to blog about that ^^

so what if i've decided where to place my heart?

so what if i'm all about you?

now, nothing matters.

even if you say it does,

it don't. anymore.

at least, for now.

i am busy!

2007-08-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

everything doesnt matter anymore.

if i didnt ask, it means, i don't want, i don't need and i can't.

so much that i wanted,

so much that i needed,

so much that i can.

you didnt get my hint,

you didnt get my thinking,

you didnt, you didnt.

just because i asked, you gave,

just because i said, you did.

just because i requested, you came.

what matters now? it seems nothing.

who's in your mind now?

who's right infront?

still the same, i won't admit, i won't deny.
i won't even say.

*close your eyes and tell me, how i look like*

anger management

2007-08-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired. think, i'm violating the use of my energy alrdy. kept having so many things cramping on one single day. i'm so restless, BUT, i'll still wtlk on. but i would wish to jog, so that, my chance of seeing the finishing line is faster.

had i been a dumbass, a clown or a fool these few days? believe in your every words and actions and put it in a corner of the heart. had been thinking, hey, it might be all my fault and tries to blame myself for whatever shit you gave. i thought, i met another goodfriend i can talk to, believe in and learnt from. but hell, you aint a good role model shithead! all i'm thinking since just now, which of your every single word comes from your heart? which of them you really meant that way you phrased it? and hell.. i really dont know how to believe in your words anymore. the shit you gave everytime, i'll have to take it. what am i? toilet bowl? toilet paper? or big dirty drain?! it's considered lucky for myself for being patient enough that time round. what if, i chosed the other way round? i'll be damn hurt by now. freaking shit, please tell me, whatever shit you've told me before was real and you changed only after the whole incident. please tell me that. at least, i'll not be hurt that i'm actually being cheated. i shall not be bothered anymore......

tempers and tantrums. i also wished i could throw all those to somebody.. somebody whom will not be hurt by me. but somehow, i'm always hurting someone who loves me.

if i could, i really would like things to work on my way, with my schedule so that nothing would clash and yes, NOTHING! some's luckily, flexible. but most of them are not! i didnt want that to happen but! do you think that i'm happy?! i'm feeling shitty! but~ what can i do? you're unhappy, you throw your tantrums on me. he/she is unhappy and he/she throw temper on me. den, i'm unhappy, i throw temper on him/her. and he/she is unhappy and THIS GOES ON AND ON! nothing would come to the end! i'll take it. take it all! take all of it! come! i shall.. keep it within me.

actually was hesistating if i should go to Laos. but nw, i think i should. i would agree even if no one is going with me. i should. stop. depending on others. and, our genting trip should be confirmed alrdy cos samaniah can't go. so. genting on first week of holiday. 2nd week should be wrking week or giving tution at home for my brother cos' his N lvl is reaching alrdy! and shit! i havent seen him touching his books can!!! zZzz chalet and laos for a week.

nothing much to say alrdy actually.
i'll take a good rest alrdy.
nights.

friend test.

2007-07-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

netball route.. school has ended.

2007-07-28T19:14:00.001+08:00

pol-ite is finally the end alrdy. this is the last time, i'm playing for ITE and, i screwed it up :(( nvm with that. what coach had said is right, if i don't have the courage, i shall not waste anyone else's time. i should stop netball. yeapps. street netball will be the last netball game i'm gonna touch i guess. no more netball for kinda long i guess :) but whoever who wants to play netball/basketball anytime, just give me a call or leave me a sms :) i will be more than willing to lose my fats! (but provided that i'm free on tt day luh =X)

concentrations now would be studies. projects, camp and work. camp with mr jaafar :D MUAHAH! we psycho-ed him to let us go. cos he say as long as we join this camp, we'll be able to go to the rock climbing thing in december. like.. woOOhooooOooo! :D oh yes, work! i've alrdy lost my feel for work for kinda long alrdy. i miss it. though tiring. but at least, no free time to rot. it'd been quite awhile i've met the jy-ers and lollipopz. some day during my hols i supposed. oh yes, one more thing to concentrate on!! EAT LESS! :D DIET !!! no more 49! NO MORE! not more than that!!

my september schedule is alrdy on planning status alrdy. oversea trip with nzo6o4a will it still be on? nw, pearllyn and jingkai are both in poly and their holiday is kinda different from us. it's abit difficult for us to plan huh?! but if nth goes wrong, it should be on the first week of our hols luh. oh yes! those who wanna know when my holiday starts, it'll be 12 september 2007. i'll be having paper on the 11th and, i'm free! haha! :D let's hope i dont have to go back to school during holiday :) muahaha! and chalet after mr gary comes back from his oversea trip.

i talked so much for september. what about my august?! HAH!
committee fiesta on the first week,
street netball on the second week,
camp on either 2nd or 3rd weekend.
fireworks on 18thSep - BOOKED.
then.. the others should be work and school bahhs.
whoever who wanna go oout with me or whatsoever celebrations,
please do tell me 2 weeks in advance. i nidd to plan my working schedule too :))
that's the trouble of part-time.

okokay. going out for dinner. take good care. smiles.